No Matter What - Part 5

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Romance  |  House: Booksie Classic
Nathalie "Lee" Johnson used to be "that average artsy girl". She was constantly ignored by all the guys she liked...until Lovin McGuire, a guy whom she met from her organization's general assembly, fell in love with her.

Thus begins the confusing world of relationships.

(Part 5 of 7. Done for my real-life "Lovin", Matthew Kevin Obispo, as part of his 21 gifts, for his 21st birthday.)

Submitted: May 11, 2012

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The number you are calling is out of coverage area…please try your call later.

“Shit.” I growled as I waited for the downtown bus. I pressed the call button again.

The number you are calling is out of coverage area…please try your call later.

“Please answer, dammit.”

The number you are calling is out of coverage area…please try your call later.

“Ugh!” I said as I slapped the phone back into my pocket. Other ?people who were also waiting for the bus stared at me. I ignored them.

…………………….

I’ve become girlfriend-zilla.

It’s like bride-zilla, only that I don’t scream at everyone for messing up the wedding. I know it’s something every guy doesn’t want to date…a girl who gets clingy.

I didn’t want to be the type of girl who wanted her man’s attention 24/7. I’m fine on my own. But when I’m in the slumps, I wanted my man to be around.

I’ve been in the slumps for too long.

I was always around when he was in the slumps. When he was worried about his Advertising Creative Class, I was there to assure him he would make the grade and he did. When his brother had mild depression and needed to go through therapy, I comforted him and told him that his brother would make it, that he will be okay again. His brother made it through. When he needed a hug, I was ready to open my arms for him. I stayed by his side even if it was difficult.

Anytime he needed me, I was there.

I didn’t want to think that these past few days that he wasn’t there for me. My past enthusiasm for work had gone – now I’m just trying not to slam my head on the keyboard. I’ve texted him numerous times, telling him how much I was beginning to hate my work, that I wanted to spend some time with him…no reply. If there was, it was just the usual “I’m busy.”

…………………….

The number you are calling is out of coverage area…please try your call later.

“Ugh. Still none.”

The number you are calling is out of coverage area…please try your call later.

I texted him that morning that I planned to drop by his office, like I always do. I was still feeling tired, and all I wanted was to be with him, even for a while. This morning, though, he texted me that he didn’t want me to come over.

I was upset when he said that. And then the day became more difficult for me.

KNOCK KNOCK

Lovin opened the door. Seeing me there, outside his office, made his eyes grow wide. I just stood there, not looking at him.

He closed the door behind him and move closer. He tried to hold my hand. A reassuring gesture, if I wasn’t so much in a bad mood. I moved my hand away.

?“Go back in.” I said, trying to hold back my tears. My voice sounded strained. He looked at me, his eyes studying me. He tried to touch me again but this time, rather than being calm about it, I almost burst.

“GET BACK IN.” I gave him a nasty glare. “I’ll wait here.”

He moved back, dropped his hand, and looked sad.

…………………….

I waited. And waited.

It felt like forever.

I didn’t want to stay inside the building anymore. My thoughts just got darker and darker and darker. I started to think…that maybe he didn’t really love me. That he would never try and try to make his mistakes right, that he would never, ever have time for me.

That I was the one who kept making sacrifices. I didn’t have enough time. We never had enough time.

Is it so bad to want him to be near? Yet I feel like I am pushing him farther away.

…I didn’t want to think of these thoughts anymore. I didn’t want to be here.

Part 6 of No Matter What -http://www.booksie.com/romance/short_story/altrntvesktchbk/no-matter-what-part-6


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