Back to Those Days

Today I saw you alone.

I tried not to look worried.

I put up a brave front and looked down.

I saw you avoid my gaze.

I began to ask you everything.

I wanted to run out many times

Yet I stood there looking straight at you.

I didn't want to show any weakness.

You told me things I knew you would.

I saw your eyes in pain and I wanted to make it go away,

Yet I forced myself to burn that in my mind.

I couldn't do anything for you at all.

I felt that I never saw you until today.

I had no idea what to do anymore.

I turned away and tears fell

If you saw me then I'm sorry you saw me that way.

I swallow all my stupid pride!

I'M SORRY! I wanna shout.

I hate this feeling that I have.

I know this will never reach you.

I haven't slept or eaten.

I don't know why I bother anymore.

Life gave us this lesson.

We had to learn it.

I still remember all our memories.

The way your arms wrapped around me.

That scent that belonged only to you.

You smile at all my stupid comebacks.

I close my eyes and feel you near me.

I remember when I fell in love with you.

I remember our conversations and your hand in mine.

I go back to those days all the time.

I miss your sweet voice

I miss those sweet words

I miss your presense

I miss everything but I can't go back.

I'm sorry for that stupid night.

I'm sorry I made you hurt,

I wish we could go back.

I'm sorry we will never go back to those days.