Lost lovers

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Submitted: December 29, 2015

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I will never forget the day
when we decided to go separate ways
and we took the last night for ourselves

he brought wine and sat there next to me
just like in the old days he was holding my hand
while candles were lighting up the room
and the silent music was playing 

even the air was painful to breathe that night
because we still loved each other 
but we lost those lovers 
that once lived within us

we spoke a lot 
we cried too
as we were bringing up the memories
knowing that they are gone
but not knowing how to bring them back

we were sitting in silence
then in laughter 
then in tears 
so many feelings were present

his eyes had special sparkle that night
they were filled with so many colors
which for such a long time
I missed to see

he was beautiful
full of understanding
maturity and balance
while caring for me 
loving me unselfishly 
fearing how will I move on
without him

that night all the memories passed through 
all the little pieces that created our life
and made from us the people we became
it was painful to feel 
painful to leave his loving soul

tears were falling down my face 
yet the smile in my heart never left 
I was sad
but grateful too
for all the precious time
I got to spend with him
and for all the things I learned 
through the man that he was

we were sitting for a long time
It all seemed like watching a movie 
of our whole life in front of my eyes
yet his face and that moment 
were still the only real thing
so clear and loving in front of me

seeing his beauty that night made me question
did those lovers truly died
and if those loving arms long no more
and those eyes see no more
and those hearts feel no more
why do I feel him so much
why there is so much love within my heart
why do I feel as if my every emotion speaks to his

I wondered
why so much pain to let him go 
while yesterday I felt fine 
why tonight I love him like I never loved before
why tonight I want him like I never wanted before
why if those lovers truly died we feel so connected
and nothing I want more but to touch him
kiss him 
hold him
feel him

we were distanced for too long
and no matter how much I wanted
I feared moving closer to my wish
closer to him
we got so far one from another
that even the touch of his hand felt new
even to look in his eyes made me feel shy
we lived like that for many years
like strangers 

but that night
oh I felt so different 
like my soul was seen 
with love which shone from his eyes
maybe because finally those eyes 
were looking at the truth
something they missed for such a long time
my pure and vulnerable self

we had nothing more to lose 
nothing to fight for
nothing to defend
we were just two hearts
naked one in front of another
feeling our past
and saying goodbye 

nothing more than that we were
we held no weapons against each other
no will to fight and to be right
but to somehow 
move on in the easiest way possible
without knowing
that it will make us meet in such a depth

I can't explain what I felt
I am not sure
I just know that it felt love
but I was hating myself too
for all things that made me blind 
for my starving ego that made me fight
and for my heart which once I closed
never treated and never cared 

I just know
that night I did not want to remember
that tomorrow he is leaving 
that he will be here no more

I asked him as I looked at him
did we had to do that to ourselves
did we had to put our hearts on a side
did we had to finish this way
sitting and crying together
not knowing how to find those lovers that got lost
we did so wrong when we took them for granted
did we had to die one in another

he did not answer my questions
but he asked back
what if those lovers are the ones
that are holding hands within our hearts now
what if those lovers are this pain that we feel tonight
what if they are the hope that we both still hold within
what if those lovers are shedding those tears for us
only to try to show us their power
only to keep us together 
what if they never even left us my love
what if those lovers are stronger than us

we both got lost in the moment
in which all our feelings were becoming alive

he filled the silence by gently putting his lips on mine
and just like the moon and the sun were kissing
while counting our last moments
in our surrender those lovers were found

Ana SobotaI will never forget the day

when we decided to go separate ways
and we took the last night for ourselves

he brought wine and sat there next to me
just like in the old days he was holding my hand
while candles were lighting up the room
and the silent music was playing 

even the air was painful to breathe that night
because we still loved each other 
but we lost those lovers 
that once lived within us

we spoke a lot 
we cried too
as we were bringing up the memories
knowing that they are gone
but not knowing how to bring them back

we were sitting in silence
then in laughter 
then in tears 
so many feelings were present

his eyes had special sparkle that night
they were filled with so many colors
which for such a long time
I missed to see

he was beautiful
full of understanding
maturity and balance
while caring for me 
loving me unselfishly 
fearing how will I move on
without him

that night all the memories passed through 
all the little pieces that created our life
and made from us the people we became
it was painful to feel 
painful to leave his loving soul

tears were falling down my face 
yet the smile in my heart never left 
I was sad
but grateful too
for all the precious time
I got to spend with him
and for all the things I learned 
through the man that he was

we were sitting for a long time
It all seemed like watching a movie 
of our whole life in front of my eyes
yet his face and that moment 
were still the only real thing
so clear and loving in front of me

seeing his beauty that night made me question
did those lovers truly died
and if those loving arms long no more
and those eyes see no more
and those hearts feel no more
why do I feel him so much
why there is so much love within my heart
why do I feel as if my every emotion speaks to his

I wondered
why so much pain to let him go 
while yesterday I felt fine 
why tonight I love him like I never loved before
why tonight I want him like I never wanted before
why if those lovers truly died we feel so connected
and nothing I want more but to touch him
kiss him 
hold him
feel him

we were distanced for too long
and no matter how much I wanted
I feared moving closer to my wish
closer to him
we got so far one from another
that even the touch of his hand felt new
even to look in his eyes made me feel shy
we lived like that for many years
like strangers 

but that night
oh I felt so different 
like my soul was seen 
with love which shone from his eyes
maybe because finally those eyes 
were looking at the truth
something they missed for such a long time
my pure and vulnerable self

we had nothing more to lose 
nothing to fight for
nothing to defend
we were just two hearts
naked one in front of another
feeling our past
and saying goodbye 

nothing more than that we were
we held no weapons against each other
no will to fight and to be right
but to somehow 
move on in the easiest way possible
without knowing
that it will make us meet in such a depth

I can't explain what I felt
I am not sure
I just know that it felt love
but I was hating myself too
for all things that made me blind 
for my starving ego that made me fight
and for my heart which once I closed
never treated and never cared 

I just know
that night I did not want to remember
that tomorrow he is leaving 
that he will be here no more

I asked him as I looked at him
did we had to do that to ourselves
did we had to put our hearts on a side
did we had to finish this way
sitting and crying together
not knowing how to find those lovers that got lost
we did so wrong when we took them for granted
did we had to die one in another

he did not answer my questions
but he asked back
what if those lovers are the ones
that are holding hands within our hearts now
what if those lovers are this pain that we feel tonight
what if they are the hope that we both still hold within
what if those lovers are shedding those tears for us
only to try to show us their power
only to keep us together 
what if they never even left us my love
what if those lovers are stronger than us

we both got lost in the moment
in which all our feelings were becoming alive

he filled the silence by gently putting his lips on mine
and just like the moon and the sun were kissing
while counting our last moments
in our surrender those lovers were found

Ana Sobota
I will never forget the day
when we decided to go separate ways
and we took the last night for ourselves

he brought wine and sat there next to me
just like in the old days he was holding my hand
while candles were lighting up the room
and the silent music was playing 

even the air was painful to breathe that night
because we still loved each other 
but we lost those lovers 
that once lived within us

we spoke a lot 
we cried too
as we were bringing up the memories
knowing that they are gone
but not knowing how to bring them back

we were sitting in silence
then in laughter 
then in tears 
so many feelings were present

his eyes had special sparkle that night
they were filled with so many colors
which for such a long time
I missed to see

he was beautiful
full of understanding
maturity and balance
while caring for me 
loving me unselfishly 
fearing how will I move on
without him

that night all the memories passed through 
all the little pieces that created our life
and made from us the people we became
it was painful to feel 
painful to leave his loving soul

tears were falling down my face 
yet the smile in my heart never left 
I was sad
but grateful too
for all the precious time
I got to spend with him
and for all the things I learned 
through the man that he was

we were sitting for a long time
It all seemed like watching a movie 
of our whole life in front of my eyes
yet his face and that moment 
were still the only real thing
so clear and loving in front of me

seeing his beauty that night made me question
did those lovers truly died
and if those loving arms long no more
and those eyes see no more
and those hearts feel no more
why do I feel him so much
why there is so much love within my heart
why do I feel as if my every emotion speaks to his

I wondered
why so much pain to let him go 
while yesterday I felt fine 
why tonight I love him like I never loved before
why tonight I want him like I never wanted before
why if those lovers truly died we feel so connected
and nothing I want more but to touch him
kiss him 
hold him
feel him

we were distanced for too long
and no matter how much I wanted
I feared moving closer to my wish
closer to him
we got so far one from another
that even the touch of his hand felt new
even to look in his eyes made me feel shy
we lived like that for many years
like strangers 

but that night
oh I felt so different 
like my soul was seen 
with love which shone from his eyes
maybe because finally those eyes 
were looking at the truth
something they missed for such a long time
my pure and vulnerable self

we had nothing more to lose 
nothing to fight for
nothing to defend
we were just two hearts
naked one in front of another
feeling our past
and saying goodbye 

nothing more than that we were
we held no weapons against each other
no will to fight and to be right
but to somehow 
move on in the easiest way possible
without knowing
that it will make us meet in such a depth

I can't explain what I felt
I am not sure
I just know that it felt love
but I was hating myself too
for all things that made me blind 
for my starving ego that made me fight
and for my heart which once I closed
never treated and never cared 

I just know
that night I did not want to remember
that tomorrow he is leaving 
that he will be here no more

I asked him as I looked at him
did we had to do that to ourselves
did we had to put our hearts on a side
did we had to finish this way
sitting and crying together
not knowing how to find those lovers that got lost
we did so wrong when we took them for granted
did we had to die one in another

he did not answer my questions
but he asked back
what if those lovers are the ones
that are holding hands within our hearts now
what if those lovers are this pain that we feel tonight
what if they are the hope that we both still hold within
what if those lovers are shedding those tears for us
only to try to show us their power
only to keep us together 
what if they never even left us my love
what if those lovers are stronger than us

we both got lost in the moment
in which all our feelings were becoming alive

he filled the silence by gently putting his lips on mine
and just like the moon and the sun were kissing
while counting our last moments
in our surrender those lovers were found

Ana Sobota
I will never forget the day
when we decided to go separate ways
and we took the last night for ourselves

he brought wine and sat there next to me
just like in the old days he was holding my hand
while candles were lighting up the room
and the silent music was playing 

even the air was painful to breathe that night
because we still loved each other 
but we lost those lovers 
that once lived within us

we spoke a lot 
we cried too
as we were bringing up the memories
knowing that they are gone
but not knowing how to bring them back

we were sitting in silence
then in laughter 
then in tears 
so many feelings were present

his eyes had special sparkle that night
they were filled with so many colors
which for such a long time
I missed to see

he was beautiful
full of understanding
maturity and balance
while caring for me 
loving me unselfishly 
fearing how will I move on
without him

that night all the memories passed through 
all the little pieces that created our life
and made from us the people we became
it was painful to feel 
painful to leave his loving soul

tears were falling down my face 
yet the smile in my heart never left 
I was sad
but grateful too
for all the precious time
I got to spend with him
and for all the things I learned 
through the man that he was

we were sitting for a long time
It all seemed like watching a movie 
of our whole life in front of my eyes
yet his face and that moment 
were still the only real thing
so clear and loving in front of me

seeing his beauty that night made me question
did those lovers truly died
and if those loving arms long no more
and those eyes see no more
and those hearts feel no more
why do I feel him so much
why there is so much love within my heart
why do I feel as if my every emotion speaks to his

I wondered
why so much pain to let him go 
while yesterday I felt fine 
why tonight I love him like I never loved before
why tonight I want him like I never wanted before
why if those lovers truly died we feel so connected
and nothing I want more but to touch him
kiss him 
hold him
feel him

we were distanced for too long
and no matter how much I wanted
I feared moving closer to my wish
closer to him
we got so far one from another
that even the touch of his hand felt new
even to look in his eyes made me feel shy
we lived like that for many years
like strangers 

but that night
oh I felt so different 
like my soul was seen 
with love which shone from his eyes
maybe because finally those eyes 
were looking at the truth
something they missed for such a long time
my pure and vulnerable self

we had nothing more to lose 
nothing to fight for
nothing to defend
we were just two hearts
naked one in front of another
feeling our past
and saying goodbye 

nothing more than that we were
we held no weapons against each other
no will to fight and to be right
but to somehow 
move on in the easiest way possible
without knowing
that it will make us meet in such a depth

I can't explain what I felt
I am not sure
I just know that it felt love
but I was hating myself too
for all things that made me blind 
for my starving ego that made me fight
and for my heart which once I closed
never treated and never cared 

I just know
that night I did not want to remember
that tomorrow he is leaving 
that he will be here no more

I asked him as I looked at him
did we had to do that to ourselves
did we had to put our hearts on a side
did we had to finish this way
sitting and crying together
not knowing how to find those lovers that got lost
we did so wrong when we took them for granted
did we had to die one in another

he did not answer my questions
but he asked back
what if those lovers are the ones
that are holding hands within our hearts now
what if those lovers are this pain that we feel tonight
what if they are the hope that we both still hold within
what if those lovers are shedding those tears for us
only to try to show us their power
only to keep us together 
what if they never even left us my love
what if those lovers are stronger than us

we both got lost in the moment
in which all our feelings were becoming alive

he filled the silence by gently putting his lips on mine
and just like the moon and the sun were kissing
while counting our last moments
in our surrender those lovers were found

Ana Sobota


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