confessions

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Submitted: February 21, 2017

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Confessions

It was so good, or it seemed, since it had finished then it had to. I know it's harsh, I know it tremendously hurts but what to do ? Aren't you the one who didn't want any shortcut to true euphory ? You're incredibly strong, you're blessed with incredible talent. 
I overwhelmingly believe that I'm gonna be happy someday. There must be way after all, maybe that after this pain, I'm gonna go through some blissfully amazing story that will definitely make me forget about all that hellish moments. Hope, that's what maintain someone alive, if it happened to vanish then this is when they truly die. I once had hope, I hoped to bring about change to this world, but I'm constantly hurt, I wanted to make it better for the oppressed people. Nonetheless, now I think of myself, and how I am going to find inner peace, tears and rain fall down on my face, my body is unable to stay yet my heart is unwilling to leave. Just, how I am going to change when my life was nothing but failures, I really curse my inability to make my parents proud of me, they did whatever it takes to help me but what did I really accomplish ? They cried for me, their youngest child, I don't wanna see their tears again, it's so painful. It all started after the baccalaureate exam, they had high hopes on me, I had an exceptional way to live, I endured every harsh moment ignoring the easy way, I DON'T WANT A SHORTCUT TO SUCCESS, that's what I constantly said, my mother was proud of me, my father was afraid, he knows that I was gonna be through the unbearable, he is just like me, maybe he had hope too when he was young but life showed him what truly is to be in pain, It was so hard for him that he changed to someone else, just like me. We're so alike after all, I want to give him hope again, hope on that hellish system, but what to do ? I'm a failure, I'm sorry dad, you're so good that I couldn't manage to reach your level when you told me that I should be better than you, I'm sorry dad, I'm sorry... I know that if you were to read this text, you're gonna get mad on me, you'll say that I'm already proud of you, but tell me, what did I accomplish ? I made my mom cry, isn't it a big failure ? One should never make his mom cry, she told me that I've become someone else, I'm no longer the guy who had principles, I'm sorry mom, I'm no longer the son who you loved the most...


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