The Void Within.

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Memoir  |  House: Booksie Classic
A bit about the crushing emptiness that can follow a broken hart.

Submitted: July 22, 2010

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The Void Within.

By Andrew LaGuire

Sometimes I feel as if my heart has imploded and the emptiness it left behind threatens to crush me. The contrast of being so fulfilled in your path as everything seems to be falling into place and your dreams are finally within your reach to that of being abandoned and betrayed as everything falls apart is more than anyone should be asked to bear. The suffering is so great I wonder if there can possibly be a positive side to this. How can one find a silver lining to the clouds that brought Katrina to Louisiana? All my beliefs and faith were tested. To the point that I wondered who was answering my prayers. It seemed that all my wishes had been granted. But with conditions I had failed to consider. Like a trick had been played on me as only the deceiver him or herself would throw in as if for amusement. Yet it all happened with such serendipity, both good and bad, that I may be able to see it as part of a bigger plan. One I don't fully understand.

Then like one more sign I hear from different sources at this critical juncture, each of them saying it in there own way, that the will of man only interferes with the will of God. One must surrender and submit to be guided. I cannot be content to steer my own course. I must let the winds take me where they will and be certain that where I am is where I am supposed to be. No matter what serve, serve, serve, serve, serve. I cannot regret nor dismay over my past actions because I have done my absolute best to live by these tenants. 1: To seek to understand more than needing to be understood. 2: To support and console others in there time of need. 3: Above all to love all those put before me with all my heart, all of my soul and all of my might! It is not as important to do this perfectly as it is to strive to do this perfectly. I can only move forward and continue to strive to these ends. I am learning to submit my will fully and let my self be guided as the chips fall where they may. With what I am given I may be content. And within the limits of what I have I will seek to creatively give endlessly of myself. For it is in giving that we receive, It is in pardoning that we are pardoned and it is in dieing that we are born to eternal life.


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