Broken (but trying)

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Poetry  |  House: Booksie Classic
Just your average 'feeling' type poetry.

Submitted: November 17, 2012

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My heart’s leaping out of my chest-

I’m a nervous wreck, 

Can’t stand tall for much longer

It’s all come to an end, 

What I thought I had I’ve lost

 

I never thought I’d cave, 

In such a common way- 

I thought I was stronger, 

More independent than that

I was wrong

 

Now, I’m troubled

Stuck in a rut-

A place where I feel I can’t escape,

A place where my dreams haunt me,

Mock and startle me

Why did I think it would be any different this time?

 

I can’t be in your presence without shaking- 

The thought of how things are, 

It makes me crazy, 

I can no longer pretend that I’m okay, 

I can’t lie to myself anymore

 

You don’t believe how special you were to me, 

Well, I’ll tell you this, 

You were-

I can barely find words to utilize that would be adequate enough to describe you,

But it’s not important anymore

Not to you

And I need to find a way to get past this, 

Somehow

 

It may seem strange to you, 

And others

But inside I’m broken-

Shaking, 

Changing, 

Emotions flowing rampantly through my mind

I don’t know how to act, 

So I fake it

Hoping that no one sees the hurt that I’m experiencing on the inside

 

Regardless of this- 

I still smile when I think about how happy you used to make me, 

Every fibre of my being ignited with the flames of happiness 

It never ceased to amaze me, 

You never ceased to amaze me

I was a lucky one, 

And it’s that thought that’s getting me through this

I only wish you the best, 

Even though I don’t always show it

At one point you were the world to me

It’s just obviously not meant to be

 


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