Sunday, August 11,2013

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Non-Fiction  |  House: Booksie Classic

Some background on my parents and a revelation on Kyle.

I like to stay up and think a lot. Last night, I couldn’t sleep and spent a bit of time thinking about Kyle. I realized I no longer love HIM, but rather the him that used to be. He was a good person and then he just turned. He has now become a part of my mind that does not exist; he is reserved in that special part of the brain that creates a person’s dream love. He was everything I wanted and now he’s nothing I want. My love has not disappeared, but rather shifted, I think this is a really good thing for me. I’ll finally be able to move on with my life and stop obsessing over him.

 

Speaking of obsessing, the newest thing I’ve been obsessing over is my brother, Evan. He’s 10 months old and I’ve never met him. He lived about two hours north of my with his mother, who I’ve talked to occasionally online. She seems nice enough, but she’s young, not much older than me and I sense she doesn’t really know how to raise a child. These suspicions were confirmed when Evan was taken by child services a month ago. He’s still there and his mom sees him three times a week. I don’t know what she did, but they won’t give him back to her. They also won’t give him to my dad, because he lives in the carnival and has no one to care for him while he’s working.

 

My parents’ relationship is rather complex. They divorced when I was five; they really should never have gotten married in the first place. They only married, because I was born, and my little brother was on the way. (Later I found out that brother isn’t actually my dad’s though, but he doesn’t know that. I believe he’s my step dad’s son, but I don’t know for sure.) They’ve never gotten along, and only communicate by fighting and screaming at each other. Over the past few years they’ve developed a system of semi calm communication through me. I am now their mouthpiece. They each go out of their way to make the other’s life worse than it is, and often use my brother and I as weapons in their plots. So asking one of them to help the other, is not usually a good idea.

 

However, that is exactly what I want to do. I’m only sixteen, so child services won’t give my brother to me. So I’ve decided to discuss with my dad the option of trying to convince my mom to take him for the next few years. I would stay at home through college and take primary care of him, then when I left after college, I would take him with me. I don’t think they’ll really go for it, but it’s worth a shot, right?

 

The first step is convincing my dad. He doesn’t exactly agree with her parenting style. And tends to mock her behind her back as well as expressing rather obscene phrases when talking about her. I relate better to me dad than my mom and find it easier to talk to him, but I’m doubting she would let him raise another of his kids. If I somehow manage to convince him, then I have to try to convince my mom. I’ve been getting better at convincing and persuading her, but I’m still new at it.


Submitted: August 11, 2013

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Criss Sole

I really hope it turns out okay with your brother. You heart is certainly in the right place.

Wed, September 18th, 2013 12:27pm

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