Lola's diary

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Young Adult  |  House: Booksie Classic
this book is about 2 best friends who seem to be so close but grow apart. Lola's diary is a heart wrenching tale which could bring a tear to everyones eyes

Submitted: August 10, 2009

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what if?

chapter 1 – dear Cathy

dear Cathy i'm great thanks i wish you could see me now i'm on top of the world, i have everything i want apart from the one thing thats missing... You.

i remember the days when we were six, we used to run to the park together in front of aunt Millie and swing for a while whilst she caught up. those were the days.

when you moved away it was hard but then you returned i was ecstatic, but then suddenly everything changed, and it wasn't good either...

chapter 2 – 3 years earlier.

''hey Cathy you wanna come over here for abit?'' i shouted from my bedroom window. We were both 15 but still enjoyed being together a lot we're more like sisters than best friends and Cathy meant the world to me. ''i'm doing my homework'' Cathy shouted back. i didn't think anything of it until later that night i was thinking and realized that Cathy couldn't have any homework we were in every single class together and i hadn't had any homework for weeks, strange.

''Cathy what was with the homework thing yesterday?'' i yelled from my window. ''oh erm did i say homework i meant housework'' said Cathy rather nervously. i knew something was wrong straight away Cathy had never lied to me before and always told me everything, or so i thought anyway.

over the next few weeks i noticed Cathy becoming more nervous and spaced out, it wasn't till another close friend told me, that i found out that she spent most nights walking round the woods on her own, smoking and drinking. i was upset Cathy didn't tell me this because normally when something was happening in either of our lives that we found difficult we would take ate night walks together maybe having the odd drink but we'd never smoked. so where was she picking up these habits from?

the next i asked Cathy about the smoking and she didn't seem too bothered i knew she said it was her way of coping with 'things' but as soon as i asked what the things were she flipped, shouting and screaming abuse at me all i could was either yell back or cry, so i did both. ''i never wanna see your face again'' screamed Cathy.

''good cos i hope your dead sometime soon!!'' i yelled. but neither of us knew how close i was.

chapter 3 – dear Cathy.

i wish this wasn't true i wish i'd said more or you'd told me why but i guess all things happen for a reason...

chapter 4 – what if?

Over the next weeks Cathy changed hung out with the wrong crowds and we didn't talk once. i couldn't believe my best friend would turn her back on me so quick. even if we weren't talking i was still worried about her she began skipping classes refusing to do work and drinking every night. this wasn't like Cathy at all. her new friends happened to be the school bullies who normally targeted me, i didn't mind cos i normally ignored them but when i knew Cathy was involved it started to get to me, my so called best friend had become my worst enemy.

chapter 5 – dear Cathy

could i have stopped you becoming what you did i can't help but blame myself...

chapter 6 – this isn't happening!

i started to forget about Cathy until the night i heard she went missing! i couldn't help but worry. tried to go and comfort her parents but they seemed to hate me to. they started yelling that it was all my fault she'd gone missing and turned the way she did. my initial instinct was to believe them but ii decided that instead of feeling sorry for myself i should be out there looking.

i spent half the night out looking for Cathy with the police but after 4 hours they told me to go home and rest so i did. i woke up in the morning to banging on the door, it was the police that i was looking with last night but the second i heard them saying we have found Cathy but it wasn't good news, all i could do was blame myself. the police wanted a statement off me but i couldn't help because i didn't know anything.

''Cathy did have this note attached to her chest, it's addressed to Lola?'' the policewoman whispered.

tears streamed down my face, i knew that note was addressed to me i was the only Lola in our school. the note read...

Lola, i'm really sorry to dump this on you now butthis is my only option i know i should've talked to you first but i made a mistake and i hope you can forgive me, remember me as the one you loved and lost.

my eyes filled and i burst out in tears i would treasure that note forever but i decided i couldn't blame myself for what happened it obviously was the best thing for Cathy right now and i wasn't going to get in the way of destiny.

chapter 7 – dear Cathy

i know you'll hate me for blaming myself. i miss you more each day and were here to see me now theres a Cathy shaped whole in my heart and it can never be filled.

missing you darling

you were the one i loved and lost but i know your there smiling down with your cheeky grin and bubbly eyes,

Lola x x

chapter 8 – dear Cathy – full note.

Dear Cathy i'm great thanks i wish you could see me now i'm on top of the world, i have everything i want apart from the one thing thats missing... You.

I remember the days when we were six, we used to run to the park together in front of aunt Millie and swing for a while whilst she caught up. Those were the days.

When you moved away it was hard but then you returned i was ecstatic, but then suddenly everything changed, and it wasn't good either. I wish this wasn't true i wish i'd said more or you'd told me why but i guess all things happen for a reason. Could i have stopped you becoming what you did i can't help but blame myself. I know you'll hate me for blaming myself. I miss you more each day and wish you were here to see me now, theres a Cathy shaped whole in my heart and it can never be filled.

Missing you darling

You were the one i loved and lost but i know your there smiling down with your cheeky grin and bubbly eyes,

Lola x x


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