I Wish I Knew Then, What I Know Now

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Memoir  |  House: Booksie Classic
A short reflection on my college experience.

Submitted: August 14, 2009

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Your past is a clear map of where you’ve been, darken lines to show the paths you’ve chosen to take and landmarks plotted along the way, symbolizing significant moments in your life, both heartbreaking and triumphant. A map that doesn’t prepare you for the setbacks, roadblocks, and detours that lay ahead. Like Oregon Trail, your fate lies in every decision you make, for each choice sends you in a different direction, on a new path filled with challenges you might not have planned for. It’s how you respond to these situations that matter. If it gets too hard, do you hit quit or do you continue? Like Oregon Trail, outside forces which you have no control over can occur, they can hit unexpectedly and hard, sending you off track. It’s how you bounce back and set yourself straight that determines your destiny. It’s impossible to measure your journey until you’ve reached your destination.

 

My college chapter has come to an end. It was a bumpy, uphill ride. There were many times when I wanted to pull over and call it quits—but somehow I found the strength to continue the drive. I’m thankful for everything I went through my four years at Fitchburg, because it made me a stronger person. I wouldn’t trade the endless crying nights, the morning after hangovers, the heartbreaks, the love, the laughs, or the people I’ve met for anything. It’s through those experiences that I learned how to let people in, how to let go, and how to believe in myself.

 

The lessons I learned at Fitchburg and the knowledge I gained will stay with me forever—the memories I’ve shared with friends, I thought I’d never find will always have a place in my heart. I’ll miss my days at FSC, despite the fact that I cried my whole freshmen year. Overall, I’ll never forget those certain few people who helped me, believed in me, and encouraged me along the way. Those who have inspired me, who gave me the confidence to believe in myself. Dr. Budz … I’ll carry her words of wisdom always; “Keep your eye on the road ahead and not on the rear view mirror.” And that’s exactly what I intend to do!

 

In all honestly, I do wish I could go back to the beginning, back to fall 2004, and do it all over again. Knowing what I know now, knowing that everything was going to work out and that I’d be alright—I would do it all differently. “So before we end and then begin, we’ll drink a toast to how it’s been. A few more hours to be complete, a few more nights on satin sheets, a few more times that I can say … I’ve loved these days.” I have not reached the end of my life expedition yet, but looking back, I can see a new landmark plotted on my map marked college graduate.


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