THOUGHTS of a caged life.

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This was something i started to write about a month ago and i forgot i had and finished it up . It is about not being able to express one self in either speaking or feeling or doing things that which one wants. It is of feeling trapped and scolded upon.
It is also about betrayal and deception and how a someone can lie and make it seem as if they did not and try to cast their wrong doing away by making the other think they are just being jealous or ridiculous .

THOUGHTS

Thoughts of doubt and UNRELENTING questions.

appear to me as if MY MINDS EYE WANTS TO SEE THESE THINGS .

Questions of the past rise up in the present.

Wish for them to no longer haunt me .

Wishing for them to not exsist in the future.

Answers that were giving seem unsufficiant for my mind and my subconsious keeps begging for answers and trying desperatly to tell me somthing.

My thoughts tell me to rip off my blinders and see things for what they actually were and are so that i can better navigate where i go into the future.

My inner most thoughts and inner voice that speaks to me when the need for warnings to take heed and protect myself .Do i denie it's message ?

Do i denie it's presistants? Do i denie the possiblities of what the truth really is?

Shall i walk amongst my present with high hopes for the future that lies before me .

Do i run forward unto the unknown with assurity that all is well and the way i want them to be ?

As i do things or say things that i feel free to do or speak i get scolded and silenced.

Only for others whom lashed out the lock on my spirit to do and speak the same

As for them they make the rules for them and for me but i can not do the same .

I am silenced and scolded and feel trampled upon with my freedoms as those who persecuted me do as they please and repeat what i have spoken and done.

Yet for them they see no wrong .

For them the path is wide open for them to walk free.

As for me my path is obstructed by the hypocrite .

The hypocrite who lays the rules down for me .

The hypocrite who is blind and deaf to the truth i see and speak.

The hypocrite who feels he can do no wrong .

My thoughts trickle through my mind like the endless flow of water from a stream.

I can not express my self .

I feel condemned.

I fear if I open my mouth to speak I will be punished for saying the wrong words.

My voice is silenced and my heart bleeds out in despair.

I feel as if alone is all I will be in my dark silence of my mind and of my thoughts.


Submitted: April 10, 2012

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bobbie99

Thank you :)

Tue, April 17th, 2012 5:16pm

MyVintageFairytale

I think the story behind this is beautiful. You have a very inspirational way to how you put your words. I really enjoyed reading it.

Sat, April 21st, 2012 3:56pm

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Thank you so much :)

Sat, April 21st, 2012 4:57pm

Pharaoh888

Very inspiring, so sensational. Well done!

Tue, April 24th, 2012 7:30am

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Thank you :)

Tue, April 24th, 2012 3:07am

Ian Dawn

I hear you and Love the angst and volume in this piece

Tue, August 28th, 2012 3:43am

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