Heart-break Warfare

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Romance  |  House: Booksie Classic
Breakups are the worst.. especially when you know you are the one who's done wrong. On top of that, you've done wrong to your first love.

Submitted: July 31, 2013

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 You have no idea how hurt I am right now. No one understands the numbness that has officially taken over my entire body. The fact of the matter is this; everything happens for a reason right? People come and go to teach us lessons in life, to help us and make us stronger and better people. I just know that you weren’t supposed to be one of the many who left. You were supposed to be one of the few that actually stayed. And you did your part, you stuck around for months. You gave me your all, every last piece of you. Never failed to tell me how much you loved me, or how you wanted me more then you even could put into words..and it’s crazy. Because I felt that way too. I just knew that stuff had to be different for a while, that I couldn’t rely my happiness onto someone else. I knew that I was a strong enough person to face it on my own. But yet again, I couldn’t loose you. So instead of Always being completely honest with you, I’d cover that up. Id cover it up because I was scared you were going to leave…and the last place I needed you was out of my life completely. But now, where am I? I’m lost without you. I’m trying to smile and be happy without you. It’s the hardest thing in the world. These past two summers have been devoted to you. Traveling with you to baseball games, you coming to see me play, dinner, ice cream, laying in my back yard at night just starring at the stars, it was all you. You were my good thing, my escape to the fucked up world I live in. I know we can’t have that first love romance back, and I’m not even asking for that. I’m asking for you to be there like you promised, because I’m not going anywhere. I’m not leaving your side. You have made me so amazingly strong. You have treated me like such a perfect little princess and that’s not changing. You’ll always be in my heart, but I want you in my life too…is that so hard to ask? At the same time, i have to understand where you are coming from…you’re hurt. Not by anyone, but by me. And I promised you that I would never ever have any intentions to even hurt you…im sorry for breaking my promises. I’m sorry for not being the girl you feel in love with, summer of 2010. But I promise you that you mean everything and more to me, and I know that you’ll never forget that..

 
 

 

 
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