Dear Pain Causer

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My brother ruined our lives at a young age and this is a letter i want to send him but dont have the guts to do so...

Submitted: May 20, 2011

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I have to ask some things.  There is a lot of things tearing me apart. Everything leads to you.  I dont want it to be this way but i need to ask.  Why did you do it?  Couldn’t you have done something else?  Did you have to hurt me and mom. Because of you I am in Hell and I want to be released.
Why couldnt you have killed me?  It would have solved everything.  I now want to die more than ever.  You are the reason for the scars on my wrist and leg.  Why did you have to rip our family apart?  Do you know that grandma hates me and mom?  She does.  Her daughter and grand-daughter. 
Have you ever thought about us?  Or do you still think about yourself?You also know I am a gutless coward.  I should have said no from the start.  I did though. It did not help.  You kept on going.  Dont you ever feel the guilt?  Does your girlfriend know?  She does.  I told her.  Can you look at me without seeing my pain, hurt, or even the scars?  Or do you still me the 6 year old me crying for help that never came?  You took me and mom for granted. 
The result?  You moving in with grandma.  My result?  5 councilors and fear. More pain less love. Because of you I am Scared of EVERYBODY! I don’t trust a lot of people. If I do, its because we have something in common. We all have had the same thing happen. Most of my “friends” don’t have any idea about the real me. I have to keep it hidden so people don’t think im a freak or tell me how they are sorry about what happened. You want to know something? Im not sorry about anything.  Because of you, I am who I am today. Thank you for everything.
 
Your little sister,
x:Lizzy:x


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