Closing my eyes, Trying to stop the tears from coming. Looking for a way to be strong, Looking for a reason to wake up ... Not sure how to be tough, Not sure i can keep pretending. Life has a way of biting me in the ass. Pull me closer to the end, Push me closer to the edge Coz Im getting tired of all this shit. Not trying to sound hopeless Or pathetic, Just trying to speak the truth. Hopeless and lost. Trying to hold onto to something I'm not sure is even there. Purpose for my life has disappeared and I feel a little Empty or maybe alot... Lately my mind has been clouded and I can't see straight. I know I have many who love me And don't get me wrong I love them. But even around them my smiles are fake And my pain is worse. I hurt them, make them feel a little of what I do Everyday. Mornings are the worst and I just wanna give up And the more I try to fight it the more it grows. The less strength I have. The suffering grows, so does the pain. How find myself? How do I move forward, when my purpose is lost?
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