“Psst!Have you forgotten me so soon?” “Just hang in there I will be with you in a sec!” I replied to the other me as I passed her by carrying a laundry basket, I
needed to get the clothes packed away, and really I was in no mood for arguments and big discussions today.
As I packed away the laundry I could hear the sea rushing to and from the shore, a sound I always loved, where I always found comfort for my lost soul, even though at times it made
me sad, very sad! ‘Why does she want to talk today of all days?” “I’ve made up my mind, no need to think it over, if I’m wrong I aint right, no need to look no further, This aint lust,
this is love.’ But..??” “But what?” the other me would answer.
What I hated most about the other me…I could never fool her, or even try to get away without answering first. My mom always said, “the eyes are a mirror of the soul!” so true
this was. I was wondering what the conversation would lead to today? We always ended up in an argument, maybe today will be different. I thought with a long drawn out sigh. I hated
it when she said “are you always going to keep ‘Chasing Pavements’ ?” she knew exactly every pain I felt inside my soul, the insecurity, the not knowing, the want and need to know the outcome,
the will I be hurt again, is this just a game, and…and…and! The other me knew it all, everything, completely and utterly.
Why? Why was I left with this mirror, was this my punishment or was it just facing the plain truth every time those brown eyes stared back at me looking right inside my soul and
knowing my thoughts? Thoughts I never wanted to face, thoughts I rather shied away from. ‘If I tell the world, I’ll never say enough, cause it was not said to you. And that’s exactly
what I need to do, if I am in love with you.’ “Ah! But in return how sure are you?”
“What about your health huh?” “What do you mean now, why this question?’” Just wondering!” “Oh! Well I’ll keep on fighting it, I need never and want never to go through
all that again, do you understand?” “I guess!” “What the hell you want me to do?” ‘”Do you want me to give up, or should I just keep chasing pavements?” “Even if it leads
nowhere, or would it be a waste, even if I knew my place should I leave it there?” “No! that’s not what I am trying to say or tell you, cant you see are you so blind, or just so in love that
you don’t see the dangers?” “Look my friend…just let it be, “I’ll build myself up, and fly around in circles, wait then as my heart drops and my back begins to tingle.”
“You know of course that home is where your heart is?” “Yes I do and so…elaborate that we can be on the same wave lengths ~~ “ I was just thinking that you should talk about
it, get clarity. You know that you cannot dream alone and that dreams are made when sleeping. Put the puzzle of heart together Girl. don’t leave it until it may be to late!” “Thanks
for the advice, I really appreciate it and will give it some thought, I promise you this, okay?” “I really have to go now, other me, I have lots to do and I can see where this is leading to,
your eyes never lie to me!” “see ya! Bye for now!”
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