Catholic Guilt

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Poetry  |  House: Booksie Classic

More from the dark side, thoughts when feeling particularly low and ashamed - thankfully, as with everything, a temporary state of affairs.

If I were blind, I'd never find

The things that light my life:

My mother's face, the human race

The dawn and sunset skies

 

I'd only hear the ocean's roar

The mountains I would see no more

The forests an elusive memory

Ten thousand children every day

And pretty girls could pass my way

Their shining faces I'd no longer see

 

Yet though I shrink from such a plight

Such dark and everlasting night

One thought would help to ease my misery:

If the windows to my soul were closed

I'd be entitled to suppose

From the world and all its vice I'd be released

 

I don't believe the blind don't sin

Don't sometimes lie, or cheat to win

So what I say applies to only me:

Desire enters through the eyes

And sin grows out of those desires

So gently close my eyes and set me free.

 

 

 


Submitted: April 12, 2012

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Wilbur

Oh my. I can't tell if this is a supposing or a dreading or both. It speaks to dark pain either way, and this next may seem indifferent to both conundrum and pain, but if your eyes ever were closed, sin would find its way to you through sound or taste or nose. Sin is far far too clever to accept simple defeat, you're right.
In any case and all way 'round, I am gladdened that the dark must always give way to its counterpart of light, and that you are then freed.
With affectionate regard, my friend - Connie

Thu, April 12th, 2012 3:39pm

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You're spot on, as usual, Connie. It's about the depths, and I can't think of much worse that can happen to a person than losing the gift of sight. Yeah, sin is so sneaky, especially when you think you've finally got it licked.

Thu, April 12th, 2012 2:36pm

Yggdrasils Ivy

Computer fail, sorry about the multiple posts.

Thu, April 12th, 2012 11:49pm

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And i thought you just loved my depressing poem so much you couldn't stop telling me! thanks all the same :O)

Fri, April 13th, 2012 2:18pm

moonphish

dark in tone as befits the subject....very good piece here

Sat, April 14th, 2012 12:07am

Kianii Valendor

A beautiful, dark theme... something everyone but Mary could relate with, eh?

(By the way, you commented on my novel, and so I just want to tell you that I write more about every hour or so... at least during the day, of course!)

Sat, April 14th, 2012 2:05pm

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Thank you Kianii. It's late here, so maybe I'm missing something, but I'd love to know which Mary you mean. And stop writing every hour or so - I already feel bad about my rate of output!

Sat, April 14th, 2012 5:10pm

meriddle

Very nice. Good read. Well versed. Very first five lines flow great. It reminds me of me. I was raised in the Catholic educational system and now do not suscribe to any notion of religion. I have been maligned. I especially enjoyed the very last verse. After all, we all are blind in some ways, either artifically of physical. And we are all still human. Mike

Sat, April 14th, 2012 3:09pm

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Thanks Mike. I may look at the first verse again - I don't why it suddenly changed shape, but it was something that just flowed out of the dark of a (hopefully) distant past. I think the battle between good and evil goes on, whether we subscribe to religion or not.

Sat, April 14th, 2012 5:04pm

meriddle

P.S. I've revised 'Rain' taking your suggestion to heart. Tell me what you think. Mike

Sat, April 14th, 2012 3:19pm

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Hi Mike. I've already revisited rain, and left you my thoughts (It's fantastic.)

Sat, April 14th, 2012 4:56pm

Insane Membrane

It reads so personal has some event happened thats creating these sadder darker thoughts ... if not well bloody well written you have made me feel concern for you , if so then I hope these times pass quickly

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I love sin ... its the spice of life I let it in freely

Sat, April 14th, 2012 11:13pm

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Thanks for all that, Mr Membrane. You're showing the sensitive side your photo encapsulates. Feaar not: if you read my other replies, you should find that these poems are merely the shadows that remain when the dark nights of the soul have long passed. At least I bloody hope so.

Sat, April 14th, 2012 4:47pm

optimysticynic

wow, this is so good. I read this and was immediately envious that I didn't think of the concept, being blind to guilt/sin, theoretically and physically. this is why I joined this site, so I could read other authors works and stretch myself to be better.

Sun, April 15th, 2012 5:12am

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If anyone should be envious, it's me, of you. You write with far more complexity and depth than I could ever dream of attempting. Thank you so much for all your comments.

Sun, April 15th, 2012 7:23am

Irwinagain

I do not believe in good or evil - both were invented by human beings for their own purpose. However, that does not detract from me enjoying your poem. Like others before I too found the first stanza excellent and was a little disappointed when it lost it's shape. But I do love the notion expressed within.

Tue, April 17th, 2012 9:49am

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This is definitely generating food for thought: no good or evil, eh? I would love to sit down and hear your thoughts, particularly after reading your Easter poem. Thanks Irwin (David?) I'll be reading more of your work and pondering...

Tue, April 17th, 2012 6:19am

brucek

i really liked this, although my view would be totally different. sorry to disappoint you, but whatever i see that i like, i enjoy liking. i'm not a black and white kind of guy, and what i do with what i see, it seems is up to me. for me, as long as i'm happy and i try not to hurt anyone (which i think i do a far better job of than most people i rub elbows with. and all the while lusting away to high heaven, as it were). lots to think about for lots of folks here, so kudos to you for that!

Sat, April 21st, 2012 10:35am

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Thanks brucek (I think). You can't disappoint me, so don't worry about that. Did this touch a nerve somewhere? I can't quite get where it took you, but I'm glad it took you somewhere. I'd still rather make you laugh though!

Mon, April 23rd, 2012 2:49am

BITSxOFxKINKY

to be forever in the dark .. an emotionally intense poem ... very well done

Mon, May 7th, 2012 6:28pm

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Thank you. I still feel guilty somehow, just sharing these dark thoughts - which just goes to show the power of guilt, I suppose. I may have to rewrite it - with jokes.

Tue, May 8th, 2012 2:20am

towers of academe

Interesting, but I am afraid I don't quite understand the title. I am not a particularly deep literary thinker.

Fri, May 11th, 2012 10:50pm

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I appreciate your frankness, as always. There's nothing mysterious in the title: I think Catholics and Jews, especially of a certain age, shared an upbringing in which feelings of guilt were deeply ingrained and subsequently remained a major factor in millions of people's lives - not to mention having a massive influence on literature, the movies and comedy.

Sat, May 12th, 2012 3:49pm

Richmaggs

Very poignant and true. Society allegedly becomes more free as the years progress. However, the one thing we're supposed to ahere to seems to create much unrest. Was religion really meant ro be 'organised'?? Who knows!! Great poem!

i have written a new short poem called The Protector, perhaps u might give me some feedback, cheers!

Fri, May 18th, 2012 7:46am

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Sorry I've not responded sooner, especially as you went to so much trouble. I did read your poem, however, and left you a comment. Thanks for your response, it is much valued.

Wed, May 23rd, 2012 4:11am

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