You built these walls around me.
You taught me hatred and bound me.
You tied my hands behind my back.
You knew it was self worth I lacked.
You prayed on my insecurities,
made me feel it was okay to use me!
You laughed when I would cry,
you thought it was fun to watch me die!
You liked being in control.
You dug and put me in this hole!
Waking up was no longer a gift,
my own eyes I could barely lift.
You drained me from the inside out,
made me forget what life was all about!
Like poison introduced to me,
slowly, you worked your way through me.
You built the walls that keep me locked away.
You dug this hole that I’m still in today.
You made me weak and withered within.
You made me believe happiness was a sin.
Quiet the builder you must be!
You even built up my insecurities.
God, forgive me for what I’m about to do.
If I can’t force myself to leave, I guess it’ll have to be you.
Staring down at your lifeless body,
I reminded myself that it was you or me.
It’s not murder, it’s survival.
I would just say you were suicidal.
My plan worked-It did, at first.
Now it is freedom that I thirst.
Maybe there was another way.
But, I don’t regret it, not today.
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