My life is so full of confusion,
I never know how I feel anymore,
I never know how I should feel,
Whether to open or close the door.
My heart feels the way it feels,
And its out of my control,
My brain tells me to slow it down,
But it's already embedded into my soul.
Why have I fallen in so deep,
I dont want to feel like this,
At this point we are only friends,
We may never even take that leap.
In a way, I want to move on,
I want to lose these feelings,
But what I feel is so strong,
It makes it difficult to just push aside
Then at the same time,
I dont want to let go,
I want to follow this heart of mine,
See where it may lead.
I know it would be something amazing,
If we were to give it a try,
I also know you aren't sure,
Sometimes I just want to break down and cry.
But our friendship means more,
Than anything to me,
My heart and mind are at war,
Where this will go, we will have to just wait and see.
I sometimes sit and wonder,
Do you ever think of me,
Do you feel the same way,
Or should i set these feelings free.
If I knew you didn't feel for me,
The way that I feel for you,
Id know its not meant to be,
And id move on with my life.
But you tell me you like me,
The same as I like you,
So I continue to wait and see,
What fate has in store.
Sometimes I wish I didn't wait so long,
Didn't run from my feelings the way I did,
I was afraid - be it right or wrong,
I was afraid to let myself actually feel.
Every time I started to feel too close,
I quickly turned the other way,
I was only afraid of getting hurt,
And afraid of.....feeling this way.
I want to tell you how I feel,
But I get a mixed vibe when I try,
And I just dont know how to deal,
If I open up only to get turned away.
I am waiting patiently,
To see where life takes me,
I wonder what's behind that door,
Now I simply wait for the the key.
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