For the first time

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Non-Fiction  |  House: Booksie Classic
A glimpse of how I was feeling the moment I first laid eyes on my son

Submitted: January 27, 2010

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Arms stretched out I look at my child 

Head one Arms two Fingers and thumbs all there  Legs two  Feet two  Toes perfect  Boy definatly 

He was beautiful pure perfection about to be laid in my arms

I stared at you as time went so slowly watching the midwife scoop you up and bring you towards me were you real? an actuall human being? I felt a twitch of fear shudder down my body I was your mother this tiny little boy about to be handed to me was mine  it was my job to love to care feed clothe teach at any age this was a daunting prospect.

Could I do this? did I want to? 

This wasn't what I expected all the emotions crashing around my insides like sea waves crashing against the cliffs my heart pounds against my chest my breathing shallows my stomach turns 

What was this I was feeling, was my body preparing me to run? to fight? I didn't know I felt light headed everyone around me fades into the background there excited voices a low whisper.

She steps forward and lays you in my arms 

I understand now I'm not scared, 

I don't want to run

For you see what I felt was the most amazing rush of love for you my son


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