One more day begun
I tried to smile
But pains were too strong!
The only thing I want is to sleep...
To make all this go away...
That fills my soul
And prevents me to get up,
Is weakening me
Is clouding my judgment
Is killing me inside!!
I feel so tired
Still, I waited for your call
So that I would know that you care!
The sun shines bright outside...
I can't open my eyes though
Because the light hurt them!
And the dark it's all I can stand!...
Unhappy I feel, 'cause I lost hope
And without hope there's no happiness!...
For the one who keeps the hope
Of being happy one day
Will be happy forever!..
Pain makes me feel miserable,
Makes me follow a different path!
I thought friends cared
I thought I was not alone...
Yet, here I am
Suffering in silence
I hate feeling like this!
I don't want to live like this
I don't want to breath
So that I can't feel anything at all!
I don't want to dream
'Cause there's no hope for me ...
I just want to know that you care !
I want you to feel my pains
To understand how they make me feel!...
I struggle to fight all these feelings
But it's so hard to deal with so many pains,
Day after day,
All day long!
My strength is fading fast
Dying inside each day
Loosing hope every minute
And I wonder where my friends are.....
If I wasn't here tomorrow
Would anyone loose sleep?
Would anyone care or miss me?
All these pains I have to live with
All this sorrow,
My effort to be strong for you all...
Does it matter at all in the end?...
I just want to lay down and never wake up!
Because I don't want to live like this anymore...
I want a better life,
Can you even imagine
How much I suffer inside?
Do you really care?
I just want to feel better!!
I don't want to surrender,
Still it's so hard....
I want to open my eyes
See the beauty of the day
Believe that all the pain will disappear..
Yet I know it's a lie!
I will never be all right!
I don't want you to see me cry,
So I smile!
Nevertheless, here I am
In my silence,
Waiting for your concern ...
If only you could hold on my hand ..
Say "you'll be okay",
I might believe in you!..
So fed up of living like this ...
All this endless pain..
Please, make it end!
'Cause I can't deal with this disease!
I just need a friendly voice
To ease my torment...
Just a flower to light my day...
Just a whisper to make me believe again!
Where are you when I'm in agony?
Do you care?
Do you worry?
Will you look for me ?
Will you send me a signal?
Soon it would be night
Though I still feel all this weariness
All this powerless!
I want to move
But I find myself stuck..
I try so hard to be strong
To control this lack of hope ...
Tears filling my eyes
A silent scream in the emptiness of my soul..
All this pain and exhaustion....
Where are my friends?
Who's going to hold me?
Who's going to help me?
No one knows...
You don't care!
I need to pull myself together
And fight this monster inside!
I will show you all
That I can do it on my own... as always!
Just silent tears
Just deaf screams
Just an invisible struggle!
Tomorrow it's another day
Probably one more day in my life...
Empty, painful, lonely
Like many others!..
Just one more step
In this path of punishment
One more silent day
One more lie
One more false hope...
If I wasn't here tomorrow
Would anyone miss me?
When I'm gone will you know indeed
How I really lived?
All the pain
All the sorrow
All the struggle...
All the tears that you didn't see
All the whispers when I was suffering?
Will you remember the best of me?
Pain pull back all my hopes and dreams...
No matter how hard you try
You just can't get rid of it!...
In your selfishness,
Would you understand how hard it is
For me to live the way I do ?...
Pretending to be fine
Smiling to disguise the pain inside?
Will you ever imagine how painful
It is have a life like mine?...
If you only knew that
A friendly voice sometimes is enough to ease the pain
That a call asking "are you ok?" would be the least you could do!!
I think I go for a sleep...
Maybe one day
I will find light and happiness again....
Maybe one day
I will wake up and all my hopes and dreams are back again...
Maybe one day...
But for now,
Let me go trying to stop my sorrow!!.....
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