Broken Dreams (For Sora's suicide story challenge)

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This was hard for me to write. I came across this challenge and after getting my word (silence) I knew I had to write this one.

Submitted: May 19, 2009

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It was nearly midnight when I made it to Hunt's road, otherwise known for the high cliffs we quite properly named "Carrie's Cliff". The cliff was named for a young woman who had died here many years ago. I made my way up the cliff, climbing carefully to avoid falling. I wouldn't want to ruin my plans now, not when Id come so far. It was an hour before I made it to the top, and stood staring down at the road below. I was in the place where she had taken her life so long ago. I always knew I would die somewhat in the same manner.
I closed my eyes and listened for any sound that would tell me someone cared, any sound of a vehicle approaching or a person running after me to come to my rescue. I should have known better. I listened hard, only to hear nothing. Emptiness, solitude, silence... I felt tears sting my face as I realized the harsh truth. Nobody would be coming for me, because nobody would care.
I left a letter for Misty, my one and only love in this dark world. I knew she wouldn't understand, but I had to let her know that life wasn't going in my favor, and the pain is just unbearable. I had to be careful to plan perfectly, if she knew what I had planned I would never have the heart to go through with it. Yes, by the time Misty received my letter I would no longer exist. I would finally be at peace with myself.
The letter read...

My dearest Misty,
Words can never describe what you have given me. I shall never love another as deeply as I do you. You gave me life, when I thought I was nothing. You are the sole reason for my existence. I wish I could take you with me tonight, and keep you with me forever. I don't want you to cry, or to regret anything. It is my time, I can feel it. Life has no meaning for me anymore. I hurt always and my soul is surrounded in darkness when you arent around. It isn't fair to you, I want you to find true love and happiness. You are my everything. Nobody else will even know I'm gone, and in time your memory will forget about me as well. I am writing to tell you I love you, and that I will be watching over you. Thank you for everything you have done for me, and everything you would have done. I know I am letting you down my love, but know this... for the short few years I have known you, I was given a glimpse of happiness that I will cherish for eternity. No matter how things would have been, or how hard they have been, I wouldn't trade you for anyone or anything else. I would have loved you despite it all. We will meet again one day, until then I will be with you wherever you go. Promise me you will move on, and allow yourself to find the happiness you deserve.
Your broken dreamer... your lost hope... and your only love,
~Samantha


It wasn't much, but it was everything left in my heart. I was cold as ice now and my spirit had already gone from me. I left what bit of life I had within me in that letter.
The wind sent chills down my back, and blew my long red hair behind me. This was it, I would finally fly away from this wretched place. I would finally find the freedom I had always craved. I opened my eyes and looked up to the sky. The moon was beautiful, and I felt tears sting my face as I realized the reality of what was happening.
I thought back to Misty. She deserved so much more than the misery I would bring her. She would easily find new love, for she was more beautiful than anyone Id ever known. Her long black hair fell in perfect waves to her waist. She had green eyes so bright they put any other color to shame. Slender and graceful, my Misty would surely move on and find a happiness I could never give her. I pulled out her picture and cried again. I would miss her.
I let the picture go with the wind, and closed my eyes again. I could feel the wind blowing in my favor. I could hear only silence, it was deafening. I was numb, and as I made my way closer to the edge, I whispered "God forgive me".
I stepped off the edge, arms spread as though I was an angel as a familiar voice called to me from below. "Sam nooo... I love you!" I saw her face below me and the tears were instantly falling. What had I done? I wouldn't have anymore time to think. Death came for me instantly, and I was finally at peace. As my soul drifted away from my body I looked down and saw me broken on the ground. How fitting I looked then to the way I had been feeling. I couldn't watch any longer once Misty reached my cold, lifeless body.
"Goodbye my angel, I love you" I whispered, and she looked my way as though she heard me in the wind. Closing her eyes, I know she felt me. I could go now, I could move on finally.


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