Watch Me As I Fall (One-Shot)

~Watch Me As I Fall~

“I give up.” then the line went dead.
Her words hung on my head like a painful reminiscence.
It dug its way through my heart, leaving the ragged, gapping holes.
These words, more than a phrase, were enough to send my world crashing down.
My heart, in danger of shattering into tiny pieces of dusts, fluttered in my chest.
It felt inflated as it throbbed.
It bled as my mind pondered, as it swam in my blissful memory,
As a particular memory, embossed in my head, filled me.

It was her, my love, laying on the jade meadow, with her eyes closed.
Shivering as I bathed her body, underneath me, with kisses.
The sun, struggling to see the scene of affection, was being concealed by the clouds.
It loathed how it cannot soak us with its warmth.
My hungry hands ran through her curves as our bodies collided with intense passion.
“I love you,” she whispered in my ears.
Her soft lips, brushed against my neck, down to my bare chest, leaving a trail of ecstasy behind.
I pushed her head, gently away from my neck and leisurely kissed her neck.
“James,” she said. I lifted my head from her perfect breasts,
And stared at her unfathomable set of glistening gray eyes.
Through them, I can almost see myself.
And right there, on that moment, I wanted to placate myself to her.
I craved for her body, more and more as we locked our gazes.
Her cold fingers found mine and intertwined to it.
I wanted to hold her against my body, as tight as I could.
I wanted to feel her heartbeat, and warmth of her body.
However, most of all, I wanted to make her feel how much I longed for her.
Dejectedly, I broke the silence that consumed us, “Are you sure about this?”
She looked away, and thought of an answer.
For a second, I was terrified that she may not want this.
She may not crave me as much as I craved her.
For a second, I thought, this was all done.
I caught a glimpse of hesitation in her eyes, but it vanished as she smiled.
“You’re the only person I’d consider doing this with.” her cheeks stained pink.
I allowed myself to break free from boundaries, indulging every inch of her…

The delight of this memory sent a mix of glee and sorrow.
I felt my heart quiver violently inside me.
It was as if I could almost hear it breaking.
I closed my eyes, letting the similar scene, envelop my thoughts.

Her head fell back, as I slowly entered her.
We moved in rhythm with each other’s body and I felt myself swell inside her.
Our heavy breaths became music to my ears as the collisions grew faster and faster.
She moaned my name, beckoning me not to stop.
I know she can feel the pleasure, as much as I can.
We were both enjoying this, and the longer we go, the more of it we desired.
The sound of her voice moaning my name sent alluring chills into my back.
Wrapping her legs around my waist, she grasped my body, tightening our hold, deepening the penetration.
“James...” she gasped my name as I reached deeper and stroked her breasts with my hand.
I moaned her name, and she screamed mine…

I struggled to leave this memory of us together.
And I found myself in the solitude of my bed.
Our bed, it was.
Once again, memories of us, together in the tranquility of this room, flooded through.
Drowning me in painful memories.
Scampering out of this room, out of this memory,
On the edge, I found myself.
In my pocket, the letter she gave grew heavy.
It was as if made of stone, pulling me down.
Further through the havoc in my sanity.
“Just go on to what you, pretend is your life….”
From this note, immobile words screamed at me.
Before my eyes, as tears fell like rain, I saw our love.
Through the blur of tears, my eyes failed.
Through the agony of memories, my heart ceased.
To me, now, the verdict came clear.

I’m now here, failing.
Intention of fatality, flooded my thoughts.
As love’s wings failed, I crashed.
From this heights that I once loved, I took one last look.
Never looking down, a stride, I took
Then, before my eyes, I saw my life.
Then before me, I left my life.
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