I try to be positive but sometimes when I look at the blank page there is nothing positive to be written. I am sorry if my mood is black. Tomorrow is another day.

I am so weary

Trudging endlessly forward

While the world revolves in reverse.

Oh to stop my pacing

Or better still the world stop turning

Flung off this sphere to become nothing in eternal space

No blame or shame, nature’s fate

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I am so jaded

False faced, smiling

While the world laughs and cries at will

Look past my smile, see my distress

Find the key to open my mind

Push me over the edge into insanities embrace

Noose or knife to escape

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I am so very fatigued

Dependability is my lie

While the world denies I am weak too.

Let me rest still for a while

There is so far to go!

Walk away, accountability is my life force

Disown me, let me leave.

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I am all spent

I am not who you have seen

Some in the world still love me

That is life’s joke

I do not care for tomorrow

I care for you that love and wish you no hurt

So passive I will remain

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Rest assured

I will carry on trudging

Falsely smiling

Mr Dependable

The unreal me

Because I love you

My pain you will not feel.


Submitted: December 01, 2011

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sweet agony xo

wowwwwwwww, i understand this totally and how you feel because i feel this way most of the time, i loved how you captured the emotion and put it into words so well. i love it

ps, most of my work is dark, and i think youd enjoy it. check it out if you like :)

Thu, December 1st, 2011 11:34pm

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Sweet agony, you have caught me on one of my black days, we all have them. I am glad I was able to relate these feelings to you. I am arcaic in comparison to you, but I am still here. I have lived and loved and expect to carry on.

Youth can be like living in a shadow, but the sun moves round and when it does your petals will open and the world will see the bueaty within you. Love yourself and live with passion, the rest will fall into place.

Thu, December 1st, 2011 11:51pm

attanasio

We always "Buck Up" for the ones we love. It could mostly be a man thing, or a HUman thing, but I do it too. Sometimes, while putting on a happy face for people, I actually cheer myself up!!

I get blue, once in a blue moon! It happens! Foxglove has the right idea. People usually high on life have further to fall. I just read her poem before I found yours. I am sure she had you in mind!

I love the way you wrote it. You mood might be sour, but your style is sharp!

Fri, December 2nd, 2011 7:43pm

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hey Obi, better today. since coming here I have been on a high, I guess I just hit a wall for a bit. I am amazed how people I really don't know, I feel I really do, and they know me like no one else in the world. I am deeply moved that as I stumble you all ran to pick me up.

Really thank you

Dibs

Fri, December 2nd, 2011 1:38pm

bobthebuilder

It's like you say, Dibs, we are getting to know you from the inside, out, and that is a terrific way, no first impressions, revealing yourself a thought at a time. Never the whole picture, always mysterious. But you are wrong, because you are able to put your emotions into words, like a great, unnamed poet once said, we do feel your pain, and feel closer to you for trusting enough in us to share it.

Sat, December 3rd, 2011 2:47am

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Bob, you are very intuitive, sure you’re not a woman?

Seriously Bookie and my friends here have given me a freedom of expression I have never known. My story is huge, and ancient. A little at a time is best. I truly wish to share my life, but only in a positive way to help others who have been touched by my life issues.

Dibs

Sat, December 3rd, 2011 7:36am

Please

Thank you Dibs for once again reminding all of us that as people and as writers we are not alone. I love this, would you please leave me updates on your new work? i dont know how to turn on email updates after i already have you as afan... but i love your writng :)

Tue, December 6th, 2011 1:34am

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I will try to remember to let you know Please, I will also see if I can find out how to do change the settings. You could remove me as a fan and then I can re-apply but this time when you accept tick the recieve emails box

Thanks for reading

Dibs

Mon, December 5th, 2011 11:33pm

Mike Stevens

Once again, you have read my mind; or are you hiding in the closet? If that's the cases, that dress you see is not mine; my aunt stayed here and used my room, but she forgot to take her dress when she went home! You've captured how I feel very once in a while; some days you just feel like being a b*****d! I feel like everyone expects me to always be 'on' and positive, but every so often I sort of resent that. Hardly ever, but it happens!

Tue, December 6th, 2011 8:27pm

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Mike you’re a diamond. In the rough admittedly, but a diamond all the same. Your comments are always so honest and sincere and you always have the ability to make me laugh, even when you are being deadly serious.

Oh and no I am not in your closet or anyone else’s, but thanks for the details, enlightening!

Dibs

Tue, December 6th, 2011 1:52pm

shiner42

Geez Dibbs, I went to your page for a pick me up, now im sadder. by the way, i figure its fine to just akjrsaknjwreovn how I want, lol. but anyhow, I feel much worse now which makes your poem good! Know what I mean? k bye

Thu, December 8th, 2011 4:12am

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Hey Shiner

I was having a tough week, to be fair you probably need to read System Restore, My Abusive Self and Coming On Through to get the whole picture.

I am in traumatic times but I am coming on through

And yes fine however you want to express in words. I am sure there is an apt anagram in there in any case

Dibs

Wed, December 7th, 2011 11:54pm

Craig Davison

I like this, especially the Hamlet reference. Check out my poem called 'One in the Ear', which uses the 'To be or not to be' motif in an amusing way. The title refers to the manner in which Hamlet's uncle, Horatio, murdered Hamlet's father. By pouring poison into his ear whilst he slept. There is some course language in it, but it is for comic effect. How many words rhyme with 'To punt or not to punt?' afterall.
PS My name is Craig, and I am 50 and separated from my young children, so I can relate to your writing.
Cheers.

Thu, December 15th, 2011 12:40am

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Craig,

Thank you for stopping by and for your understanding, I will have a look at your poem, I love anything shakespeare based, though I may have to read through split fingers, I am not big on cussing and colourful language, but accept that it has a place when used for effect

Dibs

Thu, December 15th, 2011 12:12am

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