A Hidden Wall, You Already Built Between Us

A Hidden Wall, You Already Built Between Us

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In this home

This lonely home

This horny causing shit hole

Where I rest my head

And never get laid

I wanted to stay in this place

To have a room to fuck in

But, I guess I never needed it after all

Wipe my brain off the sink

But you can't

Don't even wonder how I am

What am I doing thinking of you?

Brainwash my own heart

To stay away from thee

I'm not looking for some action

Well

Not from you

Since you'd rather pretend you don't need it

Just to keep away from me

I don't mind

__your lying

Excuses are excuses

Every lady needs one

If they wanna get away from me

Smacked up silly, is my mind

For thinking you could be mine

I'm ashamed of my over confidence

I really am

I feel guilty

Yes, I do

And when I say "I do"

At thee alter

I'll be glad it's for some one else

And not you

Stupid things

Said out loud

Makes this my fault

That, I can see

Sharp twists, here and about

Breaking my heart

That I regret having

"I'm throwing my love for you away"

I know I say that everyday

But that's only cause I have to maintain

__doing such a thing

I think I'd have better chances

With a whore

'Cause, to you, I'm a bore

You won't find your place my heart

Since that's not what you're looking for

And that's fair

The weather is a shade of hot

The ground I walk on is yours

But you're in a car

So we won't meat on the streets

You've let me go with "hello"

I don't need to be told to leave you alone

Rejection is nothing new to me

I'm so used to it

__that this story is getting old

I fold my cards

Seal my heart

Stitch it, and lock it

Not looking back

Not even at your ass

Not even another glance made quick

To even your tits

So keep your boundaries up

I'll stay giving up

I know when I've failed

I've got a life to suffer

I can panic all by myself

I don't need company going under

I'm not giving you even a hint

That you are a topic

I have a right to this

And I reserve that right

And since you've already said "goodbye"

__in your heart

I have a right to react to that

__this way

____or that

I am alive for now

And what I feel is none of your business

Since me being repulsive to you

Is none of mine

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07-25-'12

D. L. Cannon