This Nutshell Has Cracked

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Poetry  |  House: Booksie Classic
taken from my book, "In The Sand Traps Of Desire"

Submitted: October 17, 2015

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This Nutshell Has Cracked

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I woulda' known better

__if I had myself a mind at the time

But my brain wasted away

__at the coming of age

By the time I was 12

__I knew I was dumb

Because my grades all dropped

__and my friends were all gone

The last bit of normality

__was all wiped out

By the time it was Jr. high

__I stopped livin' a lie

But it still was not fair

__that the girls did not care

I still couldn't approach

__any ho that I've known

By the time it was high school

__I became a piss-and-moan

Locked up in a car

__with no one to bone

My friends came back

__but I had no one to own

No girls would ever do me

__and it made me sick

Too mad to do homework

__and it ruined my life

I had to tell my education goodbye

__because my driving took a life

Things got worse

__and then they got better

A found income

__and my virginity lost

But I was strung out on drugs

__and kept losing my loves

My father's condition worsened

__so I got off the dope

Had to move out after he died

__and recover with hope

Then my friends

__one by one, started to die

And then my cat died

__when I was finally on my own

Living in a pad

__all of my own

But still a fuckin' mess

__and out of control

The madness is spilling

__and, yeah, it does hurt

No one to marry

__when I cannot afford love

So I live to get used to

__these crazy fuckin' ways

Livin' off of my own means

__that the 12 steps teaches

How to survive

__when I get heated

I'm lookin' at my own madness

__right in the face

Every 4 days, when I have to shave

__give or take

Money's really tight

__because I don't got a job

I grew up without the skills

__to put me to work

Asking the government

__to find me some work

While I still wanna keep my check

__just to feel secure

I don't wanna date

__but love is on my brain

I'm living my life

__wasting away

Just trying to fix myself

__because you and me are not the same

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10-15-'15 #2

D. L. Cannon


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