Always Hollow

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Other  |  House: Booksie Classic

This was more for me just to get some really negative energy out of my system.

I feel hollow. All the time. It just, doesn’t go away. It’s not always bad, sometimes I even think it’s gone. But the thing is, it never is. It’s creeping under my skin, flowing through my veins until it gets back to my heart again. Then it gets bad. It makes me feel like crying all the time. The tears burn behind my eyes, waiting for a moment to fall. And when I’m alone, they do. In my room at night, they fall onto my pillowcase. But no one hears me. Or they just don’t care. Why would they? Why should they? I’m just a person. A single person. There are millions of us in the world. What distinguishes us from one another? What makes one person’s needs more important than the other’s? Just because they can’t see the hurt, doesn’t mean it’s not there. It’s always there. Watching and waiting. Setting in at the darkest time of night, consuming you. It takes over. And you shut down. You stop feeling. Even the hollowness seems to dim a little. But hurt is much worse than hollow. I’d take hollow over hurt any day. Because hurt never comes alone. It brings the crippling panic attacks; the overwhelming feeling of never ending anxiousness. It follows you every where. Lurking in the shadows of your soul and waiting to take over at your most vulnerable moments. But then it just leaves. Something good happens, and forces the panic and the hurt back. Hollowness seems friendly and comfortable now. I’m almost glad to have it back. It doesn’t start out bad. It’s there, but it’s almost like it’s disconnected from your body. But then it seeps back under your skin and through your bloodstream. And you feel hollow. All the time.


Submitted: November 20, 2007

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Evan Matthews

I know how you feel. Read some of my poems.
Very nice description

Tue, November 20th, 2007 4:06am

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Thanks!

Tue, November 20th, 2007 8:23pm

DanielleD

Milly, I always knew you were a wonderful writer but this just astounds me.

Tue, November 20th, 2007 4:16am

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Aw, thanks Dee. You commenting means so much to me! Haha! That rhymed.

Anyway, I'm not sure if you've noticed, but I haven't really written much in the last little while. I've been pretty depressed lately and just recently felt that I really needed to write something like this to get all of those pent up emotions out. It kinda worked.

Mon, November 19th, 2007 9:08pm

LunarEm

Aww, Emily, this is so sad! Very very good, but sad! Please talk to me or Dee or someone when you're feeling like this. It makes me sad to think you would ever feel this way! We're here for you! We love you! Never forget that!

Thu, November 22nd, 2007 3:48am

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Thank you, Emma. That means so much to me!

Thu, November 22nd, 2007 7:20am

K. Baltimore

I think everyone has felt this way a one time or another. Very good!!!!!

Sat, December 15th, 2007 6:05am

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Thanks!

Tue, December 18th, 2007 10:38pm

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