I Would Be Willing

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Poetry  |  House: Booksie Classic

Kind of contemplating death right now.

Would I lie for you?

It's happened so many times already

isn't it obvious

that I'm willing?

Would I cut for you?

I have three fading lines

so yes

I am willing.

Would I cry for you?

Yes

I do it all the time.

Would I get drunk for you?

Because of you

sometimes I wish I was.

I am willing.

Would I die for you?

I almost did

and although you may not like it

I am willing.

I am willing to destroy myself for you

and hurt and bleed and cry.

I'm willing to go through pain and hell

I'm willing to hang myself with knotted string

I'm willing to slice my flesh with the razor blade

harshly removed and harshly used.

I'm willing to trace the stars and paint the sky

dance in the rain and get covered in mud

if only to see your dimples

accompanied by your smile.

I said I got over you

and I did.

But now I realize that I can't give you up.

But

you're not willing to find happiness

you're not willing to take a risk

you're not willing to trust me

you're not willing to talk to me

you're not willing to listen

you're not willing to risk for the both of us.

It's all that I've been doing

and I hoped you'd noticed.

I need to stop caring

and stop feeling.

I need to move on

because you're not willing.


Submitted: October 10, 2015

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unknown knives

I like the flow of ideas here. The use of short sentences at the beginning makes you kinda rush through it a bit (which adds to the feeling of desperation), and the sudden change of rhythm at "I am willing" and at "But".
Thanks for this!

Mon, October 12th, 2015 3:03pm

Author
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Thank you, I was trying to put that in words but instead I put it in the flow. Thanks for noticing!

Mon, October 12th, 2015 9:51am

Gaea Killarny

A too well know feeling. Most are not as willing as some to give up for others.

Tue, October 13th, 2015 1:30am

Author
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All too true. Thanks for the comment!

Tue, October 13th, 2015 10:37am

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