I'm Trying (Tried, Try)

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I'm trying, but I don't know any more.

"And among His Signs is this, that He created for you mates from among yourselves, that ye may dwell in tranquillity with them, and He has put love and mercy between your (hearts); verily in that are Signs for those who reflect." Qur'an 30:21 (Al-Room)

Submitted: December 16, 2013

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I'm trying, I'm trying, I'm really trying,

But everyday another part of me is dying,

Feels like I've tried to do all I can to be yours,

But I don't think I have the strength to try no more,

.

I remember the day, I remember the conversation,

I remember the time, I remember the location,

I remember the situation in my life,

When I said to myself that inshaAllah I’ve met my wife,

And once I made that decision I started my mission,

And you told me not to bother but I never listened,

I guess I fight for what I want because my mind had a vision,

Of what I wanted from life and you were the beginning,

I gave up things that you'll never know about,

Things I loved, but I never had any doubt,

That in the Quran it was about you in the part,

Which said: “I have put love and mercy between your hearts”,

So I started trying to win you over to my way of thinking,

Trying even when it seemed that all hope was shrinking,

Trying even when it seemed that my boat was sinking,

Trying to win you over, even when I didn’t feel like I was convincing,

.

And I'm trying, I'm trying, I'm really trying,

But everyday another part of me is dying,

Feels like I've tried to do all I can to be yours,

But I don't think I have the strength to try no more,

.

I remember the time we sat and down and spoke,

About marriage and for the first time I felt hope,

I was so excited I decided I'd try whatever it takes,

Kind of out of the blue but then I always thought you were fate,

You said you'd first have to convince your family,

And I said I'd try everything I can to make them like me,

I remember when I first met your parents I was terrified,

I spoke to them and said I wanted to make you my wife,

I loved them and they seemed to like me as well,

I was honoured that they were happy for me to marry their girl,

Now it felt like there was nothing that could stop us two,

I'd never stopped trying because I love you,

Til our engagement when I felt so happy and excited,

And I saw the faces of everyone looking delighted,

And I knew for all the trying I'd done you were worth it,

For everything was going well and you were perfect,

.

I'm trying, I'm trying, I'm really trying,

But everyday another part of me is dying,

Feels like I've tried to do all I can to be yours,

But I don't think I have the strength to try no more,

.

I remember the phone call and the seriousness in your voice,

I don't want to loose you, but it seems I have no other choice,

I'm trying, I'm trying, only Allah knows how hard I've tried,

But that day was the day that I finally realised,

That I could try win over your family and your culture in time,

But your goals and outlook on life would always be different to mine,

And that you didn't love me and by now if you don't,

Then you can say that it'll grow, but I think to be honest it won't,

During that fateful phonecall so much we discussed

And you said you were having second thoughts about us,

Then you left me as you went away for a few weeks,

So many times I wanted to call you in order to speak,

It was killing me to not know what you were thinking over there,

But I thought she needs space so I'll give it to her,

But when you never called I started to think the worse for me,

My life crumbled, I couldn’t sleep, started missing university,

.

Started sitting still, staring into space all the time,

I started to wonder if I had the strength to keep on trying,

And when you came back, could I win you again,

Or was this time finally going to be the end,

I had built my life around you and I decided I had to either choose too,

Keep trying or before it goes any further I end it and loose you,

And now this dilemma is killing me I don’t know what to do,

Hollywood taught me love conquers all I’m trying to believe that its true,

Because I love you!

.

And I'm trying, I'm trying, I'm really trying,

But everyday another part of me is dying,

Feels like I've tried to do all I can to be yours,

But I don't think I have the strength to try no more,


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