I guess that I am used to it all now, although the long sleeves and the jeans in summer get really annoying. The counsellor, Mrs Peel, she says I shouldnt have to be used to it and she wants me to be in a 'happy place' wherever that is. Mrs Peel's really nice, Anna, she really cares about me and how I feel. She might as well be my Nanna! My real Nanna cant be bothered with me I guess.
I hope that your okay now Anna, because it would make me upset to hear that your still hurting yourself. I know that I do it, but thats because I'm a freak. A phsyco kid. I am mental in my brain, thats what the kids say at school.
Can you say hi to Tay please because I wont get to say it myself being half way across the world and all! Tell Tay I love him and thats something I never thought I'd say about my brother, but hey! And tell him its not his fault.
It's not yours either. You cant stop me. Not now anyway. Tell them all I love them. Everyone other than him.
Anna the truth is that I cant cope anymore. I'm mad Anna, and I need to get out of all this pain and hurt. This world has brought me nothing but heartache. I'm smothered in bruises and cuts and scars. What can a girl do when she's like that?
Mum always tells me I'm beautiful, but I dont see a beutiful person in the mirror. I see someone thats dead inside. Anna, do you remember the story called 'Nail'? The one where that girl hates her life and goes to live in the world of magic?
Well I feel like her before she leaves the normal world. Anna, if that tale were true I would have been in the magic world years ago, but it isnt and theres only one choice left to choose from. I'm dead already Anna.
You write letters to a ghost.
Anna, thanks for being there for me. Thanks for being my rock and my best friend. I'm suicidal. This letter, Anna, this is my goodbye. This is the last thing i will ever think about, the last thing I will write. Goodbye Anna.
P.S - watch the news, dont be sad x.x.
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