Everyone has a different struggle meter. We all go through life knowing what we can and cannot handle. In my life I have struggled; whether it was over something small, or something that consumed my life for that point in time. You already know my story of my lesbian life, but there have been more things I have struggled with. For example my weight has been a day to day struggle for me. Since middle school I’ve had trouble with weight. I remember in middle school during gym we had to stand on a scale in front of the class and they would do our weight body fat and all that. It made me feel really self-conscious and I hated it. I’ve tried diets, working out, pills even something as drastic as starving myself. I wanted the weight gone and it was sitting there mocking me like “nope you’re not getting rid of me that easily”. Still to this day I struggle; sometimes seeing myself naked is a disappointment and I cry a little. I wear clothes that look nice and then I start seeing my stomach poke out and it gets more noticeable to the point where I have to change and then after that there is no hope in my finding something cute for me to wear. It’s made me depressed to where I don’t even want to get out of bed for the day. I’m trying too hard to lose weight to be healthy and to just be proud whenever I look in the mirror, and I’m scared I’m going to deal with this for the rest of my life. My weight, my body, and my insecurities are an everyday struggle for me.
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