Only sixteen when you pulled the trigger. That is a day I will never forget. It's hard to believe that it has been six months since you passed away, it seems like it just happened yesterday. Now I sit here looking at an old tattered yearbook from our sixth grade year; you seemed so happy on the outside, but inside no one knew that you were screaming in pain. I feel the tightening in my chest as the tears flow down my face when I think of what happened.This changed the whole entire school, I just cannot believe you don't think you were loved, Friends, family, and teammates mourn you still. I know what you went through was hard, Losing your dad then your sister. It is a bitter pill to swallow, bur you managed for your mother and sister and niece.Although we didn't speak much I still knew you, with your quiet voice and shy smiles that have faded. But we still remember you as you were, and that is how you will always be remembered. We will always miss you though, Caleb, there will always be an empty desk that will never be refilled and there will always be a part of us that will be in pain, but your life was a gift, something to be treasured;and it will always be remembered.
Life is a gift, you may not have known it then, but all of the tears, laughs, and times of anger are worth fighting for. You don't ever really know when your time is up, it can be chosen by you or by others or by nature as it was originally intended. Life is hard, I know; I have gone through what you have had to hold back for so many years. Pain, loss, agony all of the fond memories thatgo through your mind still give you these feelings. It feels like someone is stabbing you in the chest with a hot knife, and it will heal in time. But it never really goes away. There will always be a part of you that will be in pain; an emptiness that can never be filled. I only wish thatI could have shown you just how much life had to offer. ButI know that you are at peace now, reunited with your father and sister, and someday your mother will be with you too. Iknow now that your burdens have been taken from your weary shoulders and no more will they ever arise. Rest in peace Caleb Barner. November 3rd, 1994 - October 14th, 2011 <3
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