MY FRUSTRATIONS

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Memoir  |  House: Booksie Classic

When you like doing something, no matter how many times you fail or no matter what people say, never give up on it! Do what makes you happy for it is very difficult to please everybody : )

  Have you ever read something so good that after reading it, you were inspired to write? I started trying to put my thoughts in words when I was in high school. I dreamed to be an editor or a columnist in the school paper back then. When my English and Filipino teachers provided me with an opportunity for an audition, I was more than happy to show them what I've got. Unfortunately, I wasn't talented enough to be admitted as one of the school paper's staff- and so goes my dream of being a columnist and an editor. But I just was too high spirited to quit! I thought my talent in drawing would take me somewhere. So I took another try in the field of cartooning. The competition for the school paper's cartoonist was tough but I had high hopes. I strongly believed that I could make it! When the results came, I felt like my heart fell on the ground. I was beaten by my classmate! And so flies the dream of being a cartoonist! I finally decided I don't belong in the field of news writing and cartooning!


Being a freshman in college, I was very preoccupied with studying for exams and quizzes that I partly forgot all about writing. During my first three years in the university, the school paper wasn't published due to the lack of staff. It was not until my senior year that the Department of Development Communication decided to revive the university's publication, completing its editorial staff. No I didn't try to join the staff for I did not have the guts to compete with the journalism students or perhaps, it was because of my previous experience that made me feel that I'm not good enough! The Amaranth editors solicited articles and literary works from students. Being inspired by my English 21 teacher and having the desire to see my work in the school publication, I worked on a poem that I thought would please the editors. However, as an addition to my long list of misfortunes in the literary field, my poem was not accepted. I was stripped off of all hope and passion in literature.


Two years after graduating from college, I struggled to work in my profession. Education was not really my field but my parents forced me to pursue it. I was absorbed with my job and focused my attention on watching movies and going out with friends. I never dared to write a single word to start something that would frustrate me later on. However, the yearning in my heart cannot be quenched. I longed to write poetry, short stories and other genre. Every article, every quote and every essay I read struck me. It seemed that everybody has a thing for writing. I felt like I was the lousiest person in the world.


Once more, I decided to write something. Little by little, I wrote poems and posted it in my blog. I got the hang of it so I also posted my other works. As I continued to write my thoughts, I realized how complete it made me felt. Perhaps, the reason why I was pulled down by my experiences was because I tried too hard to please other people.

Now, I write not because I want people to appreciate what I do, but to satisfy myself, knowing that I can do what I want. Though I'm not completely convinced of my ability but it doesn't matter as long as I'm happy with it!

Yes, I write because it makes me feel good. It's all that matter.


Submitted: January 23, 2009

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Snobol4

Hey Hannah,

This is a very nice story showing how difficult it can be dealing with establishing oneself in a field full of so much talent. I can totally sympathize with you and sometimes have the feeling as if some of us are simply "doomed to obscurity" for whatever reasons. The fact that you don't give up and continue to find other ways to express your drive to be artistic shows determination that is most admirable! Keep up the good work!

-Dale

Fri, January 23rd, 2009 8:07pm

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Thanks! I appreciate what you wrote! : ) : ) -Hannah

Sun, January 25th, 2009 2:52pm

neyosmissindependent601

thats a real inspirational story i really could relate to it cause i can draw and design rthings exept i dont know where to start or how to make money and i'm in high school like you were

Tue, February 24th, 2009 2:13pm

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hehehe...thanks for your comment. I bet you'll have your opportunity if you work hard for it. more power!

Tue, February 24th, 2009 3:02pm

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