I've learned

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: True Confessions  |  House: Booksie Classic
19 years old in 20 days now, i found that my 17th years was a changing point in my life. I started as someone, and now i am ending as completely someone else. Listing the things i have learned through a year.

Submitted: April 20, 2015

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Unlike people my age, I've spent my senior year learning, but not subjects. I've got my self ready but not for college. I've passed, or so i think, the score that i want, but not for scholarships. 
In my senior year, i learned that a person can be a lot of small persons, a collection of characters in one soul, but they just don't get out all at once. And that its okay to change. Its okay to look at yourself months ago and see a totally different person, and maybe in most cases, a person you once said you would never be. 
 
I've learned that you have to have your dark days. What good it would do if you always was happy and cheerful? Its almost a delight to feel the happiness after days, weeks, and maybe months of sadness and grief and lost of fucked up emotions. If there was no saddness, we wont appreciate the happiness. If it was all dark, we wont know how beautiful the light is; and if it was all light, we wont know the devastation of the dark. This called life; a mix of both.
 
I've learned that before forgiving those around you, you have to forgive yourself first. Forgive yourself because we all make mistakes, not matter how unforgivable it was. We do. We make mistakes, and we should do them until the day we die, cause without mistakes we wont be hurt, and without hurt, we wont be able to learn, and if we ain't learning, then we aren't living. Do mistakes. Do plenty of them, and dont be afraid.
 
I've learned that with each story their is a start somewhere and and ending somewhere else, but it doesn't stop here, it continue to start and end till it all really ends. And those who give up trying to make better endings, ends having lame starts.
 
 I've learned that we make our choices and not choices making us. And if we wanted it bad enough, we would have it, only if we wanted it that bad.
 
I've learned that dreams do come true, when we stop dreaming and really do. 
 
I've learned that two people cant stay together forever; it would end somehow. Afterwards we shouldn't feel devastated, we should just be grateful that it happened, cause as it says "nothing stays forever", nothing really does.
 
 I've learned that not everything could be fixed, and if we viewed it differently, its beauty lays in the broken pieces; and we should just accept it the way it is, and be happy with it too. Because its Beautifully Scarred.
 
 I've learned that we can still ache, everyday, but still got the guts to aim high, and have hope. We  can suffer, but push a little harder to reach our limits. No pain, no gain.
 
I've learned that this life ain't about what we think it is about. I certainly don't know what it is all about, but I'm sure there is more in this world than we would ever be able to know. 
 
I've learned that we don't have to PLAN for our future. Its surely knows its way well, and we should just follow. We can aim high, yes. Have some ideas, yes.  Trying different routes, okay. But should never bet with all our money, on something we are more likely to lose.
 
I've learned that love will always hurt, no matter how much we tried to be careful, and how many times we avoided it to avoid the pain; it will find its way to you, and gets you knocked down. But it will be as beautiful as how much it will hurt.
 
I've learned that we cant be experts without, first, experiencing. We have to say "yes" to the chances, "yes" to the risks. If you never try, you will never know. Personally, i have lost too many exciting moments, because i was too afraid to say Hi, too afraid to try, too afraid to be different. Till this moment i regret some chances i didnt take. But its one of the main aspects of me being who i am now. So that i will take whatever opportunity infront of me.
 
In the past year more than ive ever learned in my previous 16 years, and to this im grateful.


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