More Than You Think

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: True Confessions  |  House: Booksie Classic
What can I say?
Copy Right 2010 all rights reserved to Cindy Le

Submitted: August 20, 2010

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Chapter 1 . (DREAM 1) I sat in class, next to my best friend. Typical day for me. We were solving a question, when you turned to me and said 'six, it's six'. (DREAM 2) I had a dream about you. Lately, I've been having a lot about you. But this time was like no other dream; this time, you swept me off my feet. This time, I didn't know what to do. You give me butterflies all the time. In my dreams, and in the waking life. I don't know what it is about you.. But you have something special, something that is like none other.  You left me speechless in this dream. You tend to do that a lot. But when I saw you, I turned.. And walked the other way. I don't know why I did that, but I do things for no reason all the time. It's kinda a habit. Walking away, I thought you'd never notice. But you did. You pulled me aside, said you wanted to talk to me. Those 3 words scare a lot of people; not me. But this time, i felt a shiver run down my spine, i didn't know would happen.  You asked me what you always ask me. 'when are you leaving? Because I don't want you to'  'today'. I said You looked disappointed. I could see it in your eyes. You didn't need to say anything. I knew. We stood there. Hand in hand. You looked deep into my eyes. That alone, sent my mind blank. I didn't know what to do. I just stood there. Stood there, waiting for you to do something. And you did. You bend me over, and kissed me. Sweet, and soft. Like an angel. I could have held on to you for the longest time, and that still wouldn't be enough. I didn't want to wakeup, but we always do. I was overjoyed. Even though I knew it was a dream, I still had those butterflies. 

When I woke up, this was all I was thinking about.Pg.360. Six : six is a symbol of cooperation, balance, tranquility, perfection, warmth and love. Through it's amplification of the number three, it is also a symbol of creation and choice, and the number psychic intuition, your sixth sense. It may also represent a struggle between good and evil or the spiritual and the material as symbolized by the six-pointed star of alchemy, which is composed of two opposed triangles, one pointing to heaven and the other to hell. It's associated Tarot card is the Lovers, which symbolizes choice.

Sometimes I just lay down in bed, and think. Just think. About the world around me, and fall asleep into my fantasy world. Where I can be anything i want to be, or absolutely nothing.

Decision, love, heaven and hell. What does this mean? Am I having a crush, when I shouldn't? Is this wrong? Does this mean I love him, and not the one i should? Why am I even thinking about this? This is all just stupid. I never thought about this. Why should I? But I'm beginning to question.....What if I make the wrong decision? What if I'll regret this? How do I know which is the right? One once said, follow your heart. But it's harder than you think. What if my heart wants both?

Chapter 2 . I'm laying in bed. Usually this is the most relaxed I'm ever. But the dream is really getting to me. I can't sleep. I constantly replay the dream over and over again in my head. Trying to find more hints. Was the kiss not enough? Am I doing something wrong? The boy in the dream. Is real.  WE'RE real.  Him and I. US.  It's real. But why am I having doubts? He's perfect, I know. But there's something missing. I don't know what. But I can feel it. I can feel it when I talk to him. I can feel it when I'm with him. I can feel it when I'm talking to my best friend... 

But the other boy. My best friend. We've been through so much together. And he's the one I can trust. Really trust. You know the feeling, when there's that one person you know everything about? The one who makes you laugh, and won't hide secrets from you? The one who knows you better than everyone else? Who tells you the trust even if it hurts? The person, who stays up talking to you. Makes you feel so special? Like your not just one of the girls? The one who doesn't have to hug or kiss you, just to show you how much they care about you? It all sounds right... But right. In all the wrong places.


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