mixed emotions?

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Poetry  |  House: Booksie Classic

ok so im kinda confused as to why i feel this way let me kno if you can help

I haven't talked to you in it seems like forever.

I awaited to hear your voice again.

The second i was able to hear you say my name i jumped at the opportunity.

i was happy, excited, stoked.

But if this is how i thought i felt than why did a tear fall from my face as i said goodbye?

It was not a tear of absence. Not a tear of  leaving you again.

It was a tear of falling into the same habits.

A tear of realizing i wasnt strong enought to let you go.

That i was setting myself up for further heartbrake.

So as i pressed the end button i realized i am committing myself to emotional suicide.

Why couldn't i listen just once?

Everyone told me you were no good for me and even i told myself the same.

But if so then why can't i let you go?! why can't i release you from my thoughts?

I want to be happy that is all i ask, but my heart aches when i think of it all.

Isn't it better to cry once then several times?

Make this easy and become better.

I am sorry for accusing.

I am sorry for blaming.

I am sorry for being something i normally am not.

I am sorry for my jealousy.

I am tired of my mind playing tricks on me.

So be there and help me through it all as i learn to relove and forget the wrong doing.

I love you.


Submitted: June 13, 2010

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xXNiteHasFallenXx

aw andrea are you still going out with the douche? fuck if we went to the same school you know what would happen right???

Mon, June 14th, 2010 8:32am

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not nessecarily im oober blonde remember?

Mon, June 14th, 2010 3:17am

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