This Year's Growth

I have changed so much

in this last year.

It is scarce to be believed.

I fell in love

and lost it

Breaking my heart completely.

I broke another's heart

probably ruining his life.

I watched my friendships

go sour

and die.

And though I gained some new friends,

My old ones will never

be replaced

And I miss them everyday.

I nurtured my sick mother

for months on end

sacrificed my own life

and oppourtunities

to help her live hers.

I lost my own health

which now

may never return.

I learned many things,

To depend on others

but to never

take them for granted.

To be kind

Even in lieu

of kindness in return.

To keep my temper

Even when sorely provoked.

And to tell

All of those I love

How much I love them,

and to do my best

To never be a burden.

Everyday

I tried to learn to stand on my own.

And now?

Am I better or worse?

I hope to be better

As there was not much

On which I could build.