What do you do?

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Young Adult  |  House: Booksie Classic
I never got the chance to vent when I was younger, I never really had anyone to talk to. This little passage described how I felt growing up. Trying to find put who I was. All of my unanswered questions..

Submitted: January 08, 2014

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You know, its funny. You think you're this one man army that can do anything, be anyone, take on anyone. But in the end you realize you're wrong. Who do you turn to when you have no one? When you severed more relationships than you started. You try and look back on all the people who did you wrong but you realize you're just looking in a mirror. You didn't do them any wrong, you played yourself. You lost loved ones and friends just to try and keep up appearances. You say you don't want to be accepted by everyone but all you long for is attention. Just a little recognition. For someone to say \"good job\" or \"I'm happy for you.\" You want to hear those words from the people that supposedly don't mean anything to you, when they can in fact make you or brake you. All your loved ones screaming thank you and giving you support you push away. You might be scared or you're so high on your pride you can't step down. You fear you might look weak. So you run and hide behind a poker face. Showing no emotion and hiding all fear. But under that exterior you're screaming help me. All you want is someone to help you.. what do you do when you lost all trust in the world, god even? What do you have left? The one person who can love you for who and what you are you push away. Fear of breaking their heart or them breaking yours. What do you do when you lost all hope? When you don't see that bright light at the end of the tunnel anymore. Its just darkness. Do you know what it feels like being trapped in darkness? Its far more painful then the worst death. More breathtaking than drowning. Every thought you have is you failing. Not amounting to anything.. so you hide it. All behind that poker face. Some are good at it.. putting on the fakest smile in order to keep the peace. Just so they don't ask what's wrong. Only because you wouldn't know where to start. You try to search within yourself but you don't know what you're looking for. What do you do when you don't even know who you are..? Hard to answer huh? Imagine asking yourself that every morning when you wake up and not having one single answer..


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