To all of my Friends

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Just something for all of my fellow addicts. Especially those who may be struggling during the holidays.

Submitted: December 23, 2017

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Submitted: December 23, 2017




To All of My Friends,


As the year comes to a close, I find myself looking back on everything that this past year has held for me. It’s hard for me to describe just how polarizing the highs and lows were. In fact, on this date last year I was in jail. I was sitting on a cold, metal bunk in a cold metal cell. Wearing a blaze orange jumpsuit, an unkempt beard and wild hair. Trying my very best not to look out my window or in the mirror. For then I would have to face exactly what kind of man I was. Fully submerged into disillusion and misery, I thought that my life, as I had come to know it, was at an end.

And though I made It through that misadventure, I quickly found myself buried in others. I struggled along, never totally committing myself to a new way of life. My path wobbled between sobriety and addiction for months before it finally caught up with me. But catch up with me it did. In one short month I destroyed any semblance of a normal life and once again found myself in inpatient treatment. And while I was on autopilot at first, I made an effort to do the work and I found out so much about myself. I found talents that I thought I had lost long ago, which led me to the dreams that I’m chasing after every single day.

I believe that one of the reasons why I continued to use drugs was because I thought the world was just too big. I thought that none of my choices, opinions or ideals made any sort of difference, so I thought why bother? Why even try? I can tell you that I have come to see that I was wrong. while you may not be able to change the world in the grandest sense, you can change your world. And by putting forth your best unto yourself and others, you can impact your surroundings in ways you may have never thought possible. Before I even left St. Joseph’s, my writing was having a positive impact on others lives, and even led me to a position where I can help so many more people than I would have otherwise. Don’t ever lose heart or hope. Your dream may be just around the corner.

Where as some may have the tenancies to see the worst in themselves, I see the very best. I see the most intelligent, brave, tenacious, beautiful, courageous, versatile, resilient, loving, and brilliant people. I see the very best that this country has to offer, and yet most are not even aware of this. And it is because we lived a life that breaks humans down into animals.We must strive not to return to our old selves, but to forge ahead and become our new selves. Take all of the wisdom and experience you have and use it to become the person you wish to be.

So wherever you may find yourselves this holiday season, know that you are never alone. You have an entire family of people in recovery always waiting with open arms. You have so many friends, in every city, in every state in this country. And you have me. While we may not know each other by name or face, take comfort in knowing that we share experiences the likes of which most people never encounter. And if you believe that you have no one thinking about you over the holidays, know that I am. Stay strong and be brave. Tomorrow is a new day for all of us, and it can become whatever you wish to make of it. Happy Holidays friends.



Jake P. Fortin

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