hello there rim, it seems we’ve met.
how could i forgive, how could i forget.
my chin rests upon your white surface,
it seems we always come to this.
i get down upon my knees,
she begs me please, keeps begging please.
a push and shove, she’s out of sight.
i just want to be lovely, dainty and light.
spewing mistakes that i’ve devoured today,
i wish my true soul had a say.
spilling more and more fuel,
my face is clammy, pale and cool.
passing out is what i am a custom too,
cuts and scrapes and easily bruised.
thinning hair and loosing pigment,
seems it’s been a while since.
not throwing up because i’m drunk,
throwing up because i’ll never be good enough,
until i reach my goal, until the numbers go down,
i’ll keep on creating this familiar sound.
gagging and choking, music to my ears.
drowning out what should be fear.
i will say i’m sorry, but not for what i have done,
i’ll just say i’m sorry, for the person i’ve become.
i’m changing now i swear, i’ll do better in time.
but this is my life, you can’t take what’s mine.
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