Love, Life and Loss

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Romance  |  House: Booksie Classic
i have written 3 short stories based on 3 different quotes that have had a personal effect on my life.

Submitted: September 11, 2012

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Submitted: September 11, 2012



Draft 7 - 26/8/12

As I open the double doors to the old Church down by the lake, I realise that today is the day that I would say goodbye forever - the day that my heart would close off to all feelings and I would be numb. Truth be told I've been numb for a while now, I've just never realised it until now.

I take my seat and think, today is his wedding day, and I can't believe that 2 months ago he had told me the news that made him more happy then a 5 year old in a candy shop and that made me so fragile that I had to hold my arm around my stomach just to keep myself from breaking.

 There was a time when he looked at me the way he looks at her - he used to hold me tight and kiss me passionately, he told me that everything would be okay and I believed him every time. But that time is gone and today, it finally feels like a lifetime ago.

 We were high school sweet hearts and everyone was positive that I would be the one in white - even I was at one point.  He was the reason for my happiness but something changed, all of those petty little arguments got the better of both of us - instead of every couple of months they would occur every couple of weeks, then days. And the sad part is that they were all over Annie; the bride. 

  No one will ever understand how much it hurts; breaking up with him was one of my hardest decisions yet. That day replays over and over in my head; like a never ending episode. You could tell that my words cut him like knives - with each sentence, that knife was getting pushed further and further into his heart.

 He begged me for days - weeks even - for me to take him back, promising that he would change, but you shouldn’t have to change yourself just to be with someone. Seeing him in so much pain was killing me inside but I couldn’t bring myself to take him back.

 It was only a matter of time before he realised that his love for Annie was true and came to surface, he should have listened to me months ago, it would have saved a lot of sufferance and tears.  I knew that as much as he said he loved me, he was always going to have feelings for her too and that’s why I broke it off with him. I couldn’t be with him knowing that I was his second choice.

 Things were a little rocky from then on, though we tried to be friends we would always end up fighting but I spose that’s what happens when you’re only 18...

Tears started to stream down my face as I heard those precious words of “I do”.

"Beautiful ceremony" my mother said.

As I look down to the yellow-gold ring that he had given me on our first year anniversary, I knew it was over.

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