Let one pill slide down and have another one follow. I need to end the suffering. I need to end the pain. All I want is to close my eyes and have the pills fight the demons that lurk inside my mind. How can my heart continue to beat if my heart is forever broken and deceased? I live among those who smile and laugh while I cry and plead to God for a sudden death. I am nothing, I know that now. I will continue to be nothing, I will continue to frown. Why do they want me to live and suffer with pain? Why do they let me live and continue to make mistakes? I've lost their love. I've lost their trust. I'm nothing but rotting dust. I lay down upon the grass, look up and see the clouds pass. The clouds then turn a shade of gray and then it starts to rain. The rain pours over my tarnished skin to revive the demons that have laid within. I take a few more pills to settle them down but the demons still lurk and work away at what I've tried to mend. I'll never get better. I'll kill myself trying. I just want to end it. It's not worth the lying. Goodbye everyone. I'm sorry for crying. But today is the day I'm tired of trying.
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