Another year has come and gone-
And still I cry all alone.
No end to this pain in sight-
No damn way to ever make it right.
No hope left that I can see-
Nobody here to love me.
Nobody to miss me when I’m gone-
Condemned to a life of being all alone.
Time doesn’t stop for anyone, you see-
And you’ve moved on without me.
You are the love of my life-
How could you be the one holding the knife?
You stabbed me over and over in the heart-
Laughing as I fell apart.
You knew all of the HELL I’d been through-
God only knows why I ever trusted you.
It seems to me that some people are put here to have a full and happy life-
And others are put through years of torture, pain and strife.
If there’s someone for everyone out there-
Then why do some of us search everywhere?
And still it’s not there-
Or it’s there, but it’s not good enough for the other person to even care.
Something can seem so perfect and yet they choose not to stay-
You get so close to that happiness and someone always runs away.
If there is someone for everyone then where is he?
Where is the one to complete me?
Oh yeah I forgot he was here and now he’s gone,
And I’m still here all alone.
Do we get just one shot at that happiness, one chance?
Will you know it’s true love with just one glance?
And if there is only one person for each of us, then what happens when they walk away?
And you are left there standing frozen in time-forced to stay.
If that person has came into your life and gone,
And you are left there all alone.
Then why should you try again?
You can’t go back to where you’ve been…
But you can’t move on to someone new,
You had already found that person that was meant for only you.
That’s it, that’s the end of your chances-game of love over…
You can’t rewind and restart your life with a different lover.
You might find someone that can help ease the pain-
But it will never be the same.
You will never have that passion and complete undying love again-
You might find a shoulder to lean on-a new friend,
But the love of your life has slipped through your hands-
You heart keeps falling and never seems to land.
You lose your smile and your laughter and your will to try-
So why is it so damn hard to find that someone that we are all supposed to find?
Can someone just tell me why?
Some people find that person and live happily ever after, while the rest of us cry.
It just doesn’t seem fair.
It hurts so much to know that before I can blink I will die and leave nobody behind that ever found it in their heart to care.
It just hurts-more now than before-
Precious time slips by more and more.
And each day is a repeat of the day that just passed,
And I am left here alone-Always chosen LAST!
Just a game I can’t win-
Too much pain to overcome from where I’ve been.
Not enough fight left in my soul this time-
It’s like running out of gas just short of the finish line.
Nothing left to do-
Race over-you’re through.
But I don’t have the fuel to race again next week or ever again.
Time to face facts-Love is just a race I will never win!
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