How I see myself

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This is a poem I guess :P It's pretty much what I would say to a certain person if I ever had the guts. Maybe I'll read it to her someday...

Submitted: November 03, 2011

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Submitted: November 03, 2011

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You can’t even imagine the thoughts inside my head

You don’t even know half of my life

How I see others

And more importantly

How I see myself

 

You say that you know me so well

You think you know more than I do about myself

You know one or two secrets

But you don’t know how I see myself

 

You are a hypocrite

You tell me not to judge you

But that is what you do to me

Every single day

How do you see yourself

 

I don’t think you’ve ever doubted

Your decisions and choices

You’ve never been self-conscious

Because you don’t see yourself like that

 

 I’ll admit that I’m not perfect

But you’ll never do the same

You always have to have the last word

Never accept that you might be at fault

 

You’ve never tried to change yourself

You don’t know how hard I’ve tried

To make myself look different

You think I love myself

But I don’t see myself like that

 

I’m uncomfortable even eating in front of you

How do you expect me to share my life with you

You say my problem is being secretive

While your problem is telling too much

 

You spill your secrets out

All of them to everyone

Then you dare to tell me you are fed up with life

When you get everything you want

 

The worst thing in your life

That you can tell me

Is that your parents divorced

Well guess what? So are mine

 

You’re not special because of this

Most teen’s parents are

You ask for pity and comfort

But be glad you like both your parents

 

Your dad isn’t alcoholic

And you don’t swear he may be bipolar

Your mom doesn’t yell every chance she gets

She doesn’t make you feel like shit

 

You tell me that she does

But really, when’s the last time she yelled

When’s the last time you felt no good

Just because you slipped up once

 

Your sister doesn’t hate herself

Almost as much as I hate me

She doesn’t hurt herself

And then say everything’s alright

 

No, your big sister is caring

Sure she got pregnant when she was young

You say her life is ruined

But look how happy she is

 

You criticize when someone has a nephew

And they’re only a teenager

But look at you- you’re 14

And you have a nephew

 

That’s the worst thing you can think of

About your “shitty” life

I even gave you the chance

To deny this clear fact

 

Just because you share your problems

With anyone who asks

Doesn’t make them any worse

 Than the problems kept secret

 

You’ve never wanted to change yourself

You can’t even imagine the thoughts inside my head

You don’t even know half of my life

How I see others

And more importantly

How I see myself

 

 

And at the end of the day

Will you really care

What my thoughts are

And how I see myself


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