"Good Night."

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Finality.

Submitted: August 07, 2012

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There is something disheartening to me about the words "good night."
While their intentions are purely thoughtful, they have an opposite effect on me.
They have such finality to them, and I'm not one for endings.
Some argue that all things come to an end--all good things for the pessimists--and while that may be true, I prefer things to dissolve.
I believe in hope.
And, as with all things, you always find yourself immersed with hope when you fear or expect change.
When things do change, it occurs in one of two ways:
Quick and painful
Or gradual and puzzling.
I prefer the latter.
Peculiar, I know, but my reasons lie with my own well-being.
I've learned that abrupt endings are the hardest to endure.
One sudden change of mind and a huge part of your life could be executed.
Those changes make you feel alone.
You know it's over.
You can't retract someone else's decision.
It's only theirs to make.
The seclusion you become familiar with pains your heart frequently, hard-heartedly.
The same is only partially true with a slower process.
In this, you are still hopeful.
You think and feel that you've got it all wrong.
And while this may hurt sometimes, I have found it profoundly better for me.
You have hope, to put it simply.
You don't feel completely alone because you're not sure that you are.
You can sustain this hope for a great length of time.
Even until you find something else to believe in.
Then the finality doesn't seem so bad.
It just seems... final.


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