Clarity Within Turmoil

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: True Confessions  |  House: Booksie Classic
My inner battle.

Submitted: June 16, 2013

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Submitted: June 16, 2013

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I hate you,

I love you.

I can’t make up my mind.

Tell me why the right answer’s so hard to find?

You despised me, you cursed me,

You raised me, you loved me.

Everything’s so balanced,

but maybe that’s just another talent.

In my mind the good outweigh the bad.

How would I know? You were the only one I ever had.

No one else could ever replace you,

I couldn’t even if I wanted to.

It’s not like it’s that I don’t have a choice.

I know I do, you’re the one who gave me a voice.

But it’s so hard,

you’ll always play that guilt card.

I want you to stay, but at the same time,

I don’t because you commit crime after crime.

Only to me do you ever show your dark side,

but only when you smile will I ever abide.

The excuse of blood is your only reason,

would I be able to accuse you of treason?

It’s not fair because every time I try,

I find myself asking why?

Why can’t I move on and just be done?

Is it because my reasons are buried in recollections of fun?

I remember you smiling and taking me someplace new,

but then you’d find a new way to break me too.

I don’t know why I can’t make up my mind,

even though you’re intent on keeping our bind.

You’re the one and only in my life,

even if just talking to you is a daily strife.

I hate you,

I love you

Dad.

 


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