For not one second i thought it would turn out this bad
For not one split second did i think i would be this sad
If i knew it was a dream i would have made sure to never wake up again
so i would never have to feel this horrible pain
to know the person you love no longer feels the same way
never again will things be "ok"
I cant help thinking about how hard i tried
all my effort has just left me petrified
They ask "how you feeling now"
I think "where do i even start, he stole,broke and ripped every inch of my heart"
so you reply "im fine" thats about it
but you're not even fine utterbullshit
imagine having to lie about being hurt
washing three times a day and still feeling like dirt
feeling of wanting to die on the spot
feeling of not wanting to move, to lay in bed and rot
memories that cant be erased
precious moments that cant be replaced
the feeling of never being complete
the pain in your heart for every beat
from being so high yet no so low
from being so attached and having to let go.
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