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PTSD Lives Forever

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Poetry  |  House: Booksie Classic

Submitted: January 21, 2018

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Submitted: January 21, 2018



Pieces of me lay lost in translation, whispers barely understood

My ears deafen out the voice of my childhood

Pain so imbedded within my roots

So triggered by life

Loss heavier than boulders, festers in my gut, weighing on my soul, invisible beneath a mask of content

Grief surfaces when I remember you, when I see others' joy, when I try to move forward  

Guilt overflows my lungs, suffocating me, paralyzing my brain

Loneliness riddles my body, restrains me from others, recycles me into the dark

Smile through the tears, paste on my happiness

That's what you drilled into me

Your silence taught me

If you don't talk about it, it's not there

You ruined me


Each of you

Day by day

Your whispers taunt me

When will I hear myself, hear what my heart longs to know

Listen, listen to me

My neglected spirit yearns for emotions I was never shown, never allowed

How can a child raise a child? 

How can innocence remain untouched 

When my trauma has damaged me so

Generational wrongs may never cease

I must find the ending

Who can help?


My youth passes

Lend me your hand

Dig inside me and decipher my missing pieces


Before it's too late, before the past repeats itself. 

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