Personality Over Looks

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Romance  |  House: Booksie Classic
story about love.

Submitted: December 23, 2012

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Submitted: December 23, 2012

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A year ago, I was a normal girl with a normal life. I didn't go out as much as the other girls did. I didnt have the best grades in school, but i tried. I didn't have a crush on anyone, I didn't like anyone. A lot of people would make fun of me and call me ugly or other rude names. I never understood them , I was nice to everyone. They would make me feel bad about myself at times, but my self confidence was stronger. I would hold back my tears to show everyone that I didn't care about every single little word they would say. I'd keep my mouth shut. No one really cared how i felt. In 7th grade they would treat me the same way. In 8th grade things changed. I had a deep crush on a guy who was really inmature. He was really cute, but in the inside he was a total jerk. He would be talking to other girls , while he was talking to me. Then he started to ignore me and avoid me, and the week after he already had a girlfriend. I felt like my world was over. I would pray every night, so maybe god would make him change. I cried for about seven months for him, until I realized that crying for a guy is not worth it. Then in December I started to have a facebook crush on someone who was really popular. I thought he was really cute, but he would of never put his eyes on someone like me. I was just not good looking or attractive to anyone. To me , he was just a dream that would never come true. I knew that it was never going to come true, but i still kept dreaming. I really wanted to meet him in person and be his friend. So, I unexpectedly met him at a party. When I saw him, I smiled. I thought he had the cutest dimples ever. I even remember the first phrase he said. Every action he did , I still remember. After the first time I met him, I would see him everywhere. Sometimes he would say hi, and sometimes he would'nt say nothing. I didn't really expect him to say anything after all, because he didn't know me, to him i was just the girl he saw at that one party. One day I came back from a party really sad because he didn't even say hi, and he was with another girl. That girl was really pretty, and I tought to myself, i'll never be good enough. We are two different persons. But I didnt give up, I would always message him , but he would never reply. I felt sad. After a while, I started to understand that me and him would never happen, that he could do way better. I kept on seeing him every party I'd go to. I even asked him to dance with me. He said to wait, but it was clear to me, all he had to do was say no. But someone told me that he tought I was cute, so I go really excited. I went back home with the biggest smile on my face. I messaged him the day after , telling him how it was good seeing him. He seemed uninterested in talking to me. After this occasion, I would still message him, but the same thing happened, he just wouldnt reply. For a while I stopped talking to him. Then, on summer he posted on my wall. He said text me. Oh my god, I was screaming and jumping around the whole house with the biggest smile on my face. I even called all my friends to tell them that he posted on my wall saying that. I simply said okay, like if there was nothing special in that wallpost even though I was dying deep inside of exitement. I remember our first texts. I was so happy that i was talking to him. After we started texting, he would always tell me to come over, but I would always flake or say I cant. Until one day he invite me to Regal to hang out. It was really far , but I wanted to hang out with him. So, i went with my bestfriend and her mom gave us a ride to Regal. We got lost , and my bestfriends mom was about to go back home, but we figured out how to get there. Once we got there I was really nervous. I was literally shaking. Then I saw him, and his bestfriend. He gave me a hug. I wasnt feeling that excited anymore. I wasn't excited anymore because I started to think he was ugly. I wanted to leave from Regal. He kept on kissing me on the cheeck, and I was really grossed out. He had also asked me for a kiss but I rejected him because I realized I didn't like him anymore. I disliked him even more due to the fact that he told me he'd give me a ride back and he didn't bring his car so me and my bestfriend got a ride from a stranger. Once we made it back home , I told my bestfriend that after what happened I didn't want to talk to him. But now it was him who started to text me and message me everyday, and after a while he told me he liked me. I just couldn't believe it, because I liked him for over a year and he barely decided to put his eyes on me. I didn't want to be rude, so I told him that I liked him too. But I really didnt. I leaded him on. He would tell me all these sweet things, and I'd do the same, even though I didnt mean anything I said. Some time passed by, and he was in love with me, but it was due to the fact that I leaded him on, so he thought that I had the same feelings for him, as he had for me. He would try to make me the happiest girl. but I still didnt like him. I didn't know what to do, it was getting to a point where I would get really annoyed of him. I didn't want to talk to him anymore. So I started to someone else. That person turned out to be one of his closest friends. I didn't know until after, but I had already started to like his friends, so there wasn't anything I could do about it. When he found out I liked his friend, he was really sad, which made me feel bad because I had learned how to appreciate him. He had already gotten me my birthday present but went to return everything. I felt so bad for leading him on. His friend started telling me all these sweet things, so I fell for him. But he was just a jerk. He already had a girlfriend and was talking to other girls. I cried. I was really sad that this happened to me again. I fell for the wrong person. After this, I told myself this wasn't going to happen to me again. Time passed by and I started to miss the other guy. I was still mad at myself for leading him on. I asked myself why I missed him if I didn't even like him. But I started to realize that I had started to grow feelings for him during the time we were talking. I cried because I thought to myself, I leaded on a good guy, who was willing to make me happy and not play me like the other guys, someone who was actually different, what had I done? He would still try to get me back after everything that had happened. He would always tell me I love you, and I'd answered, I do to but not the way you do. But when I realized I liked him , he told me I love you once again, and I answered, I love you too. He responded back saying that I forgot the part, but not the way you do, and I told him that part didnt exist anymore, because I actually liked him. When I told him this, he was really happy, and I was too. We started talking more. Everything went back to normal, with the only difference that now I actually did like him. I would get mad and jealous now. I took care of what was mine. Everyhing was normal, but he gave me bad news. He told me he was moving to L.A. in a couple of weeks. I thought he actually wasn't going to move. But he told me he was going to move the next day and that he wanted to see me before he left. He told me to go to Regal, and I say okay. But I ended up flaking. So he said , I guess i'll see you again in a month. I was really sad, because I thought he would find another girl at L.A. I told him how I felt and he told me If he found a girl over there it was my fault because I never put 50/50 into what we had. I started to tear up. I didnt want him to leave, especially because I knew that what he told me was true. He asked me can I please see you at least for five minutes before I leave. I couldnt believe it. I said yes. 


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