I wish I could say, Dearest Michael

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Romance  |  House: Booksie Classic

The title says it all. What I wish I could say to that one friend I devote my writing to... It has a little musical references as in, lyrics that stick to mean

Dear Michael,

I know we haven't spoken for a while, and it's actually painful, just the thought of you gone. But it's the truth, it's the reality. You left me with the false hope that you would come back. All that hope has now changed to sorrow over the past nine months. I mean, excuse my Disney Musical quote, but you're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing. Now, I know I've never heard your voice before, but I hear it, in my head. The words only seen when we first met 'you shouldn't fall in love with me'. With those words you left me hanging, over the edge. I was about to fall in love, helplessly. When I did you caught me, and that's why I sing. That one song we would send each other lyrics to, back and forth: A Thousand Years. You're probably wondering how I still remember. Well, I'll tell you, I won't forget; it will probably take me a thousand years to forget, as I'm brought to tears every time I hear it. I sing that song to the fullest, in memory of you, even though I don't sing it often. I fully resent music and stories that always have happy endings. Our ending wasn't happy, so why should I enjoy seeing other people end happily? You, you died young, too young. It was a sharp knife that ended your short life, or maybe even a razor? Either way, old friend, that doesn't mean you didn't die. Either way, your soul has forever let. Your body might still be walking, even though I'm not completely sure it is, but your mind certainly has left us.

I guess I should stop blaming you and get on with the truth. It's my fault, completely my fault. I fell in love with a wonderful man, and I left him. I didn't want to leave you, but things in life changed. If I were there, would I have changed your mind? I probably would have. I wouldn't be here in my empty room feeling so alone and empty, as you would be with me. I gave you half of my heart, all the right pieces, and in exchange you gave me half of yours, all of the right pieces from you as well. When you left, the pieces disintegrated, leaving airy holes in my heart, making it seem complex. Now, the question I ask before ever letting those holes be replaced is, is it so wrong? Is it so wrong to be in love? I feel like now I'm just a pawn in its game, and it makes me so tired. It makes all of this feel too real. I now feel as if I've lost my love, but love is not lost, as sometimes I think of you. Even though you're gone, you can still make me smile, and you've enabled tears to flow down my face and realize how humanly inhuman you've made me.

Your Dearest Love,

Lauren


Submitted: January 22, 2013

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Derwin Gonzalez

I'm not going to bullshit you I liked it. It was poetry I think and I usually don't enjoy that type of stuff but I enjoyed that letter. I doubt Michael's response was as eloquent. I look forward to reading more of your work.

Sun, January 27th, 2013 5:31am

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Thanks :)

Sun, January 27th, 2013 1:21am

HR Matthews

Damn. That's extremely sad. You've definitely written a very emotionally powerful piece here, but I do have a bit of constructive criticism if you don't mind. Edit your work before posting it. I did enjoy reading this due to your ability to invoke strong emotion within the reader, but the numerous grammatical and occasional spelling errors threw it off a bit for me. Keep in mind this is merely my opinion. Good job on this creation though, and thank you for sharing!

Sun, January 27th, 2013 7:37am

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Thanks for the critique.

Sun, January 27th, 2013 1:23am

Stormbird Throneshaker

Sadly sensational!

Wed, January 30th, 2013 3:18am

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Thanks, that's what I was going for!

Wed, January 30th, 2013 6:16am

Naan

very sad and beautiful.. good work

Sun, February 3rd, 2013 10:27am

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Thanks c:

Sun, February 3rd, 2013 3:08am

Priyajit Roy Chaudhury

Oh! It's really good. The story is about a trauma of losing love. I read it with great interest. Carry on...I want you to write back soon.

Tue, February 5th, 2013 9:10am

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Thanks :)

Tue, February 5th, 2013 6:23am

Broughton Wallace

Very original, writing the story as it were a letter. The length was just right, and it had poetry in it. It was touching and I enjoyed it. Keep writing!

Wed, July 31st, 2013 5:25am

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Thank you! :)

Sat, August 17th, 2013 3:23am

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