My legs won't carry me,
My mind won't think.
My eyes feel heavy,
Deeper in I sink.
And no matter how hard I try,
I just plod along with closed eyes.
I know not where I am,
I know not what I do,
I am not me, I just exist,
But why? what for? I haven't got a clue.
My mind is full of randomness,
And my body feels dead.
Why is it that I'm such a mess?
Is it something in my head?
Now I know what it is,
And why I feel this way.
I feel I've accomplished nothing,
I feel this every day.
And my heart...It feels alone,
It does not skip or flutter.
Its beat is in such monotone,
That it does not even stutter.
And although I feel and think this way,
I know all could be great.
But its not like I just have to pray,
Or sit around and wait.
I know I need to work hard and change things for myself,
As being this pessimistic does no good for my health.
So I take a deep breath and stand up tall, with determination and passion in mind.
I smile, and then I take a step and leave the past behind.
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