My Fear by Kenia Sanchez

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Young Adult  |  House: Booksie Classic
My Fear in my words.

Submitted: December 26, 2009

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Saying goodbye is the hardest thing ill ever have to do. But still, I have to do it. On top of everything, I have to keep their heart safe, and my heart away. I lost sight of direction so fast that I spun away from reality in a matter of a few breaths. I need to get away – I need to feel the satisfaction that I no longer feel. I don’t belong here and my sorroundings have made it clear. I pull myself away to keep people from pushing me away. I’m a lover, not a fighter. I don’t want to stand in the middle of battle, that isnt mine to win.

With each day it gets closer to that day – the day that everything will change. No one will look at me and maintain those thoughts of me that they once had. A normal person usually excites themselves with the coming of that day – the day that I dread so much. Tears leave a trail from my eyes because I want what I can never have. One day I will look in the mirror, and I won’t look like the 17 year-old girl that I am now.

Why do I fear it? Why do I fear so much the idea of growing? I don’t want to be fearful. I don’t want to be scared of it. I want to embrace it and thrive within it – but I cant. Because it’s the thing that’s terrified me since I was a kid even if I didn’t realize it till now.

I don’t want to be 18. I want to be a kid - forever. What will it take to have that, and nothing else?


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